skullgrid

she's baaaaaaaack.

so far so good. obviously there will still be some adjustment time with the new meds and whatnot. the girls were REALLY happy to see her - although vivian was also kinda mad at her for being gone so long. how do you explain something like this to a 4 year old? we told her mommy was sick and had to go get better, but I'm still not sure she really grasps the full implications of it. oh well, she seems to be over it now.

for my part I just feel relieved. I can't say I really enjoyed that small taste of single parenthood, and I now have a whole new level of respect for anyone who manages to pull it off. don't get me wrong, I'm sure I could step up if circumstances demanded it, but obviously it's not a position I'd ever HOPE to be in.

I think the most stressful thing was the uncertainty of the whole thing. not knowing when she'd be back. not knowing IF she'd back - would they decide that it was bad enough to keep her indefinitely? etc etc... I'm not great with sudden changes - I'm the type who needs time to warm up to something new - and I'm even worse when I'm unable to at least somewhat anticipate what's coming. I guess some people would use the term "control freak"

anyway, long story short, she's here. all is well - not perfect, but well - and I've still got some vacation left.

today is decompression day.

thanks to everyone who showed support, either publicly or in private - considering how recently I started actually participating in the community here and how relatively new I am to all of you, it's reassuring to know that y'all take care of your own, so to speak. I appreciate it