skitzjones

I've made bad decisions sober, but the entire time I had the nagging feeling that it was a bad decision. When drunk, that alarm system never even went off for me to ignore it.
And when strung out... I wasn't even the one making the decisions anymore.

I used to think I missed drugs and booze... I was only sober because medically it is no longer healthy for me to drink... but I think I was just saying that to sound "normal" and make it less awkward for the people around me who still like to get fucked up.
I don't care if other people drink or do (certain) drugs, hell, I still spend a lot of my time in bars and I think pot should be legalized in the US...
I just think for me I've reached a point in my life where I'm better clear headed.

I also realized today that what I eat really affects the way I feel. I've been on healthy more natural foods for the past few weeks, but today I gave myself a lazy cheat day and ordered a big nasty greasy pizza and after two slices I just felt like crap.

To steal an analogy from Henry Rollins, you wouldn't put sugar in the gas tank of your car, it would make the car run like shit. So why put anything in your body that affects your performance level?
I dunno, I hope it doesn't sound like I'm preaching or anything- again, I'm very much of the opinion of to each their own, and certainly have no room to talk because in my time I did my share of drugs (I also probably did your share too when you weren't paying attention) but I'm just kinda realizing personally how much better I feel really trying to be healthy and I wanted to verbalize it somehow and just put it into words.