So on Friday night at the party my whole world was kind of turned upside down.
Things have been going well. I knew I loved Melissa, but I wasn't going to sit idle by and wait for something to happen. Bottom line is I'll have to find someone pretty fucking cool for me to consider giving up on her.
But I know that it can happen.
I start flirting again and I started to feel as if I were more open to dating and what not.
Well at the party on Friday night Melissa starts spilling her guts.
"I love you"
"I'm sorry I came on so strong at first and then pulled away"
"I'm sorry that I can't give myself to you right now"
"I feel bad, because you're passing up oppertunities with other people for me"
"But I do Love you and I need you to know that"
"I don't know where I'd be without you"
"I'm sorry that I've hurt you"
"I love you"
Well this just sux me right back in. I got a good night kiss that evening. That was nice considering that we called off messing around. It felt nice to hear a lot of those things even though it doesn't really change much.
So I've been fine, and I've been happy. I go and end up hanging out with her last night. I end up spending a few hours of there and we didn't do much at all, yet we had a very good time. Edger was with me, and her friend was there.
But all fucking day I've been pineing over her. I just want to go over there right now. I just want to shake the shit out of her and say what the fuck!
But I know that I can't. We'll be going to my mom's house on Monday so I'll see if my plan of attack changes anything.
Things have been going well. I knew I loved Melissa, but I wasn't going to sit idle by and wait for something to happen. Bottom line is I'll have to find someone pretty fucking cool for me to consider giving up on her.
But I know that it can happen.
I start flirting again and I started to feel as if I were more open to dating and what not.
Well at the party on Friday night Melissa starts spilling her guts.
"I love you"
"I'm sorry I came on so strong at first and then pulled away"
"I'm sorry that I can't give myself to you right now"
"I feel bad, because you're passing up oppertunities with other people for me"
"But I do Love you and I need you to know that"
"I don't know where I'd be without you"
"I'm sorry that I've hurt you"
"I love you"
Well this just sux me right back in. I got a good night kiss that evening. That was nice considering that we called off messing around. It felt nice to hear a lot of those things even though it doesn't really change much.
So I've been fine, and I've been happy. I go and end up hanging out with her last night. I end up spending a few hours of there and we didn't do much at all, yet we had a very good time. Edger was with me, and her friend was there.
But all fucking day I've been pineing over her. I just want to go over there right now. I just want to shake the shit out of her and say what the fuck!
But I know that I can't. We'll be going to my mom's house on Monday so I'll see if my plan of attack changes anything.
pinhead66:
Sometimes physical activities don't need to be attatching to a loving relationship. It's fucking hard as hell...but it's also a true test of will. Trust me...I know.