skew

So the mystery of why a firend of mine never had any money is finally solved... he and his significant other showed up to I (heart) huckabies (I love tha movie) tonight and she had a little addition to her hand... a 5k diamond engagement ring! About 2 hours after learning this, I lear that another friend got engaged (right around the time we were gawking at the mysterious rock on the first guy's fiance). This ,coupled with a bunch of friends from high school that I've kept close ties to have recently announced wedding dates, has hit a nerve.

I'm getting older and it's never been easy for me to find women... let me rephrase that, girls that like me I think hate me and girls that just wanna be friends I think may be so inclined to date me... see the problem there? Now I am faced with the prospect that I've got 1 year left in grad school before I likely start job hunting. I've never been the most sociable of persons -- I was always the shy kid in class. The probability of me even finding someone to date are extremely low these days, much less a decent probability that said dating experience turns out to be serious (which, as someone feeling older and older every time I walk through camup, is what I desire).

I hate being alone. I hate sleeping alone, I hate watching movies or the nightly news alone. I hate green eggs, but not ham. I am not Sam.

current feelings: lonley
music that describes my mood : Barber's Adagio for Strings
movie type that I wanna watch: something where the nerd gets the girl., not the goddamned dumbass riped action star

Maybe If I got religious or something I could find nice girl around a church setting... oh wait... church girls bug the fuck outta me...

-skew