I won't lie and say that things are easy at the moment. They're not. I'm not all doom and gloom, and I know that things will get better, but big life changes take some getting used to.
I'd written a longer blog, but just deleted most of it cos I'm tired and finding it difficult to write anything fully coherent. I'm OK really, don't misunderstand... Read More
Well tonight was interesting. Uncomfortable at times, but necessary and a bit of a relief.
Soulshaker and I went to see my parents after we'd both finished work and sat them down with a cup of tea for an unexpected announcement. They could see that some kind of news was coming, but I think they were expecting to hear talk of "the patter of tiny... Read More
That reminds me... I had a group request rejected today. I wanted to set up an SG debate society. They said there was already a similar group. I'll be dammed if I can find it...
I remembered you had a group request declined a while back. Seriously, do they actually let you make groups any more?
I kinda thought they may have declined my group because people would just yell at each other. But I did say in my application that I would make it private, vet members, have a strict format and kick out any jackasses. Oh well.
P.S I replied to your atheists group post. I can't believe I'm saying this, but where do I enrole for bible study? x
I should really stop doing this.... I have a really long day of work tomorrow for which I need to be alert, and yet here I am at 1:15am still online and I'm already feeling a nasty headache coming on...
So I'm going to bed now. Goodnight all.x
I love Go-Karting; only been once but it was a lot of fun. The local track is 1 min walk from my office, and so we're trying to organise some lunch time fun for the next week or so!
1. Last beverage- Gatorade. How strange... I never drink Gatorade!
2. Last phone call- Last night when I ordered a takeaway. Yum!
3. Last text message- My mum, tellin me to buy a birthday card for my cousin (I'm forgetful)
4. Last song you listened to- Hmm... the radio was on this morning, but I can't remember what was last.
5. Last time... Read More
1. Last beverage- A & W Rootbeer (Icy cold)!
2. Last phone call- To my husband - to tell him the results of my biopsy.
3. Last text message- Redbox - with a free movie code
4. Last song you listened to- Hmm... the radio was on this morning, but I can't remember what was last.
5. Last time you cried- This morning - durring the biopsy - it hurt!
6. Dated someone twice- Yes.
7. Been cheated on - Yes. By my ex - that's one of the reasons why he is my ex.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it- Oh,Yes. But hey, what's done is done!
9. Lost someone special- Yes. Multiple times.
10. Been depressed- Yes. For years, depression was a constant companion.
11. Been drunk - Never.(Absolutely true!)
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Crimson
13. Teal
14. Sage
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends - Yes
16. Fallen out of love- No. Actually, love him more than ever....
17. Laughed until you cried- Many times.
18. Met someone who changed you- Everybody changes me. Everyone has their impact, even if it's just a change of perception. So yes.
19. Found out who your true friends were- Yes, and sometimes it was a sad realization....
20. Found out someone was talking about you- Yes
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list- Only in cyberspace.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life- two
23. How many kids do you want to have- How does this fit into the "THIS YEAR" section? Can't have any.
Do pets or current husbands count?
24 Do you have any pets- Two uber-cool cats.
25. Do you want to change your name- No
26. What did you do for your last birthday- Relaxed (That's worth a lot these days)
27. What time did you wake up today- Just before 6 am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night- Tossing in bed.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for- Can't wait to go to the Ren Fair.
30. Last time you saw your father- 17 years ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life- I wish I had met my husband sooner.
32. What are you listening to right now- Quiet
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom- Yes - and he's a pompous PIA
34. What's getting on your nerves right now- Right now? My kitten - I need to get her "fixed"...
38. Zodiac sign- The thirteenth one....Look it up....
39. Male or female- Female and glad of it...
40. Elementary- My Dear Watson
41 Middle School- You'd die laughing
42. High school- Several one rich, two Ghetto
43. Hair color- Dark Brown
44. Long or short - Growing it out - so long - getting longer
45. Height - 5ft 7in
46. Do you have a crush on someone- My husband.
47. What do you like about yourself- When I'm wrong, at least it's for the right reasons
48. Piercings- None (In homage to my Mom)
49. Tattoos- None (In homage to myself - I like not being part of the pack!)
50. Righty or lefty- Righty
FIRSTS :
51. First surgery- Today
52. First piercing- See above
53. First tattoo- See above
54. First best friend- Ah... Died at the age of six - burned alive from a spark from a wall heater.
55. First sport you joined- "Joined"? volleyball - third grade - was a right of passage at my school.
56. First pet- Pickles - cat
57. First vacation remembered- Hmmm... Disneyland. LA Baby remember...
58. First concert- Bonnie Raitt.... years and years ago!
59. First crush- Ricky Murphy
60. First alcohol drink- Lava flow!
RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating- No
62. Drinking- No
63. I'm about to- Take a nap
64. Listening to - Nothing
65. Waiting for- Nothing
YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids- at one point yes, now no...67. Want to get married- Haha... oh boy... never again!
68. Careers in mind- I took a wrong turn and don't know if I can escape
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
69. Lips or eyes- Both
70. Hugs or kisses- Again... both
71. Shorter or taller- It really doesn't matter.
72. Older or Younger- Again... it really doesn't matter
73. Romantic or spontaneous- Why am I constantly being made to choose!? Both are good!
74. Nice stomach or nice arms- Stomach....
75. Tattoos or piercings- It's all cool
76. Sensitive or loud- Both again
77. Hook-up or relationship- I'll stick with my relationship - Thank you!
78. Trouble maker or hesitant- Oh, now this one's easy... Trouble maker! I always go for the brat....
HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger- Yes
80. Drank hard liquor- Yes
81. Lost glasses/contacts-Yes
82. Sex on first date- Yes
83. Broken someone's heart- Umm... I don't know... maybe
84. Had your own heart broken- Yes
85. Been arrested- No
86. Turned someone down- Yes
87. Cried when someone died - Yes
88. Liked a friend that was the same sex- Not in "that" way....
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself - ......................... Sure!
90. Miracles - Yes
91. Love at first sight - Yes
92. Heaven- No
93. Santa Claus- No
94. Kissing on the first date- Yes
95. Angels- No
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now- Yes
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time- Yes
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever- Yes
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without - Oxygen
100. Hoping other people do this- Always interesting when they do...
Hi, I've spotted you in the poly group; I think that makes 5 UK members now. Very exciting. Anyway I don't normally request friendship on such short aqcuaintance, but I think it's rude to read journals without commenting, so I thought I'd let you know that I'll be dropping by for a read.
A significant and important chapter in the story of my life has now closed behind me. A chapter filled with, at different times, periods of immense joy and raw pain.
The last two weeks were the transition from the last chapter to the new one.
This morning, a new chapter begins. I anticipate a tough time ahead, but ultimately a light at the end of... Read More
It always amazes me that people actually read what I post. I usually just post my ponderings on whatever I'm interested in at the moment - sort of a stream of conciousness. I'm always exploring something.
Right now, I've been reflecting on middle class values and consumerism. Our society has pushed the values of consumerism to expand our markets - a constant round of rising expectations. But our current economy has brought a dose of realism. - we are now having to contend with the concept of lowered expectations.
Which brings me to exploring core values - of simplfying my life - and a better understanding of what brings true happiness. In other words a return to the basics and a rejection of consumerism. (Of course, if everyone rejected consumerism - than the economy would get worse - and expectations would need to be further lowered....)
Thanks for the encouragement. I appreciate it more than you could guess....
My boss's daughter was murdered in Japan two years ago and it's just coming up to the two year anniversary. He owns a small, family-run business and I was at their home tonight as they were getting ready to go to Japan tomorrow to try to raise the profile of the case over there.
The mother and sister did a radio interview earlier in the... Read More
IMurder is so devastating, so pointless, so final. When you lose a family member to disease - at least you are somewhat prepared. You may hope for the best - but in your heart you know the chances are they won't pull through. You can be somewhat prepared for it.
It's so hard to witness the pain that results from that kind of loss.
As you said - it does put things into perspective. whatever your problems - there IS a light at the end of the tunnel. You are right to seek out a little escape from it all. Do something that's a treat. Remind yourself that there's a lot out there that's worth living for.
What I really feel like doing right now is driving really fast. Dangerously fast! I'd like to do it on the roads, but I won't, I'm too conscientious.
I wanna take... Read More
I wanted to put another song up on my blog post today, but I couldn't find one that sums up today's thoughts and feelings. It's been a bit too varied today.
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