I just typed out something really long, and I hated it so I deleted it.
My brain is such a thunderstorm all the time and my phases and mood cycles and I cant even keep up.
So bottom line, in the past year, I realized I needed to get my emotional shit together (I know thats never going to happen all at once) but I needed to feel like I was moving forward.
In January I went back to school to finish my degree. I didnt tell anyone other than my mama and like 3 other people because I was so afraid that I was going to fail out again. The semester kicked my fucking ass, and I finished with and A in BIO, an A in PEC, an A in PSY, and a B+ in Stats (I am fucking terrible at math and I worked my off for that B+).
So since the closest @blackheartburlesque date was the night before my final exam, and still 3 hours away, I decided to just say fuck it and drive the 6 to Detroit and meet up with the best bestie @lady. <3
I got to Detroit (after getting stopped at the Canadian border for an hour) and got to watch Lady shoot @peneloppe looking like an adorable lil pinup, and then watched her shoot a SG set of @lascaux (who I haven't seen in over a year). @Maud showed up (who is just as beautiful and stunning in person), and we went and got food with @zephi (who is such a lil pixie I cant even believe it).
We went to the show, met @smashbase there, and I got to meet all the Blackheart babes. Not a single one of them was anything less than supportive, adorable, and so incredibly talented. @mavis_ showed up late and found us in the crowd and I screamed I was so excited to meet her.
The show killed it, obviously. It was AMAZING to watch. I wish I could follow them to every tour date.
So ramble ramble ramble. Confidence. End of the semester. Personal accomplishments. Adventurous payoffs. Things SG has done for me, directly/indirectly/whatever.
Having adventures with best friends...
Meeting incredible new friends....
Reuniting with old friends....
Learning to love others, to love myself, to let go of hurt and grudges, to let go of fears, to see new places and learn to embrace change, to be confident in moving forward, in myself, to like living.
Thats how SG changed my life.
End ramble.
