Well I don't like posting like that previous blog as much as you might think otherwise.
So here I am covering it up.
I was going to write a lot of very interesting and insightful things I discovered tonight about my family dynamics but it got too personal and I felt less and less comfortable sharing it here.
I'm so sick of so many things.
I'm sick of pissing people off.
I'm sick of being pissed off.
I'm sick of having a whole day to pieces for no good reason at all.
I'm sick of people jumping down my throat.
I'm sick of people not-so-behind-my-back trash talking me and thinking they're clever for it.
I'm sick of people's thinly veiled sarcasm and insults.... Read More
So, I'm considering conducting a minor experiment.
Nothing big, but if I disappear for a few days I don't want anybody to worry.
I don't even have any plans at the moment really but things haven't been going so well for me lately.
I don't know what I'll do or if I'll do it but, well I guess I already said it all.
experiments are always fun. thanks for the compliments on my website I'll be updating it alot in the next few months so layout and design might change a bit.
I think I've pretty much moved over to the "better to give than receive" department. Seeing people get something they really wanted, or be blown away by a surprise gift, manages to put a smile on my face. The holiday mostly just manages to stress me out, but other people enjoying it or appreciating it helps my mood.
So I came to this realization.
I'm happy.
I'm pretty definitely failing a class, I have some horrible dynamics with a group project that's the final of another class and I have no idea what to expect from my remaining two.
My relationship with my parents is pretty strained at the moment (and I'm sure that report card isn't going to help things).
My roommate's... Read More
My most sincere apologies for overlooking the comments on my previous (previous) blog.
The fact is I was in such a hurry to cover it that I didn't even look at what people had written
You all gave me excellent excellent advice and I can't begin to express how much I appreciate it. The feelings I mentioned there still exist to some extent but... well... Read More
Aw, well it's the thought that counts Thank you, sweetheart!
Good luck with your test, that's really exciting! I somewhat know how you feel... I did Taekwon-Do for 8 years so I get the whole testing thing...and allll the anxiety that comes with it, but the feeling during and when it's over is amazing. I can't wait to see pictures!!
In a departure from my previous blog, I will now be posting a very selfish, very attention-whorish blog.
Warning, there is "emo-ness" and "pathetic-ness" galor in these spoilers. I wouldn't expect anybody to read it and if your opinion of me is at all important to you you probably shouldn't. *sigh* Oh well.
I didn't know about this Blue Beanie nonsense until like the day before, and it had been circulating in blogs I normally read for over a week. I almost missed it!
And I'm pretty sure this isn't what you mean with what you've typed up there, but it runs dangerously close to you judging your self-worth in terms of what someone else thinks of you. Never mind the fact that the "perfect guy" is the ultimate moving target, not only changing in description from person to person, but also influenced by trends and media
Wow... a blog so soon after the last? I must be sick or something.
This will be a philosophical rambling blog followed by some photographs of an injury
Now I have to say that I'm not quite in the mood to write at the moment but I think what I was pondering was incredibly important to me at the time that I was thinking it... Read More
Unconditional love is something I think we all crave- we all want it- but I'm not sure most of us get it from humans. We certainly get love- and that's pretty damn good.
I have a hard time saying that though because then you have to split hairs with humans. If you are talking about romantic love- then I think in some ways it might be possible. My ex for example- I haven't talked to him in at least 2 years- I broke up with him and craziness ensued. We told each other we'd love each other forever and you know what- I can say I held up my end of that promise. I don't show it and I don't profess it generally but that's pretty damn unconditional.
So it's possible- but it's easier when you don't have so many feelings wrapped up in it (like my case- I have nothing wrapped up in it).
Family on the other hand- I have all sorts of stuff wrapped up in them yet I have unconditional love for them- because I know they have unconditional love for me. It just is simultaneously apparent to both parties. I think that makes it easier- no need for jealousy.
thanks for the compliments on my website I'll be updating it alot in the next few months so layout and design might change a bit. 
