skeeve

Definitely time for a new blog post. I'm not in the mood for a deep, meaningful look at the human soul or anything like that this time. So don't worry about that. I'm gonna talk about me

So, I haven't really been sleeping that much lately, and I'm not really sure why. I have one or two ideas but if I'm honest they don't explain things for me. Last night I managed to actually sleep for 6 hours or so, which I thought was pretty god for me. But I'm going to sleep in as long as possible tonight because I think it's all finally catching up to me. I know that I can go several days without sleeping if I need to, but I really don't need to right now.

Training was awesome this week. I had a huge breakthrough with my rolls and that makes me a very happy panda In general I really love the effect that ninjutsu has been having one me. I'm just a white belt and already I can feel it creeping into the rest of my life. I feel like I have more control over things I didn't used to. Like how long I sleep. I woke up at 5:30 on the dot today without an alarm, which was just when I'd meant to. I then decided that I could really use (and afford) some more sleep, but the point is I got up when I wanted to. I feel a lot more flexible and my legs don't hurt like they used to. I feel a lot more aware of my surroundings and I don't get surprised by things as easily.
Like today, for instance, there was a guy on the subway with a freaking iguana on his shoulders. Just randomly. Thinking about it I have to question why he was doing that (he was by himself), but when I got on the train I noticed the iguana, thought to myself, "Huh, that's a little strange," and that was it. I didn't stare like I used to I just acted like it was totally normal. I've been doing the same thing walking down the street and I've noticed that squirrels and the like don't scamper away from me anymore. It's freakin awesome!.
I'm probably not explaining all of how this feels too well and I'm sure some of what I said seemed a little stupid or whatever. It's just hard for me to express it accurately. Everything just feels a lot more right. And I like it.

I am, on a less positive note, feeling like I'm stuck in a rut. I have this routine that I go through every week and it's just starting to feel too damn repetitive. I need to hang out with somebody I haven't in a while (or somebody I haven't ever ) or get drunk or something. Just to break things up. It's starting to really get to me. I love talking to all you fantastic people that I've met. Extra big thanks to BrightRedScream, RatedPG, Holdin, Sphenoid13, and (though I haven't talked to you in a while ) baby_squid . You guys are all totally awesome and you've made my boring life a lot more interesting I love you all for being trustworthy and good listeners, but more importantly for trusting in me. It really means a lot to me.
(If anybody feels left out of that list, I apologize. These are people that I've spoke to outside of the chat room for more than 10 minutes)

So, I think that's quite enough introspection and mushiness for one night, I'm going to try and pass out. Wow 1:30? This is the earliest I've been in bed all week! Maybe I'll sleep 'till noon, that'd be awesome

Much love to everybody I didn't specially mention, you guys are super cool too.

Seacrest out!