Well, it's Saturday night. I decided to have a night by myself. I had to go buy a gift for Amy today for her birthday. We are gonna go down to Newport to celebrate next weekend. So far I got her a beer mug, a card, a gift card to Hollywood Video, a pack of Garbage Pail Kids, and a card. I am thinking about getting her some art supplies. She loves to paint, but never has the time anymore. Amy's cute, too bad she digs chicks. Damn you lesbians, DAMN YOU ALL!
I hate birthdays around Christmas. This is will be my second Birthday I bought for in two weeks, and I still have 3 peoples' birthdays coming up. Is there nothing beeter to do than fuck in March? Stupid question.
My grandmother is starting to get loopy again. I hope she doesn't end up in the hospital. She is under alot of stress. It always happens to her when she gets stressed out. Her sister and brother both found out the have cancer. Her brother had prostate cancer, and they thought they got it all, but they didn't and it has spread. Her sister has breast cancer.
On top of that, we recently found out my uncle has AIDS, not HIV, but AIDS. Best part is, he knew and didn't tell anyone. I guess he has had it for about for awhile now and didn't feel the need to share the info, dumb basterd. It is hard to say I feel sorry for him, he is a bad drug addict. He stills pills from my grandmother. I am guessing he got it from dirty needles. He already has hepititas. Some people never learn in life.
I hope my grandmother doesn't end up in the hospital. I hate it. Everytime she goes to the hospital I always wonder if she will make it back out. Last time she went, we didn't know if she would make it. I was scared.
I can't imagine life without her. SHe is the most important person in my life. She is what keeps me alive. I truly mean that. THere was a time, about 4-5 years ago that I was really messed up over some things that had happened. I truly believe the only thing that kept me from killing myself was knowing what the effect would be on her.
Well I can't wait till New Year's It should be so much fun. Some how I agreed to spend it with some friends. One of those friends is Jenny, who I kinda have a thing for. As I mentioned earlier, we once had a moment that turned sour but we recovered for the most part. Her husband will be there. I don't care much for him. I came close to hitting him once. He doesn't know about Jenny and me. I guess that is a good thing, though if he did, he might swing on me, and I wouldn't have to feel bad for hurting him. But I couldn't do that to her.
He doesn't treat her the best. I've heard him say some unkind things to her before, and heard of alot worse things he has said and done. I don't liek him, probably never will. So, yeah, New Year's woohoo. I figure all n all, it should be very entertaining. Good thing is when I drink, I tend to become a free love hippie. Calm and mellow I am. Bad thing is, I believe everyone should be doing someone, even if that someone isn't me (Never tell a security guard she should take his partner out on a date cause she is kinda hot, followed by "I'd do her." It gets the sheriff called on you.)
On that note, I beleive I will end this entry with a quote from my friend Johnnie...
"Arrrrr ya fuckin butt pirate"
I hate birthdays around Christmas. This is will be my second Birthday I bought for in two weeks, and I still have 3 peoples' birthdays coming up. Is there nothing beeter to do than fuck in March? Stupid question.
My grandmother is starting to get loopy again. I hope she doesn't end up in the hospital. She is under alot of stress. It always happens to her when she gets stressed out. Her sister and brother both found out the have cancer. Her brother had prostate cancer, and they thought they got it all, but they didn't and it has spread. Her sister has breast cancer.
On top of that, we recently found out my uncle has AIDS, not HIV, but AIDS. Best part is, he knew and didn't tell anyone. I guess he has had it for about for awhile now and didn't feel the need to share the info, dumb basterd. It is hard to say I feel sorry for him, he is a bad drug addict. He stills pills from my grandmother. I am guessing he got it from dirty needles. He already has hepititas. Some people never learn in life.
I hope my grandmother doesn't end up in the hospital. I hate it. Everytime she goes to the hospital I always wonder if she will make it back out. Last time she went, we didn't know if she would make it. I was scared.
I can't imagine life without her. SHe is the most important person in my life. She is what keeps me alive. I truly mean that. THere was a time, about 4-5 years ago that I was really messed up over some things that had happened. I truly believe the only thing that kept me from killing myself was knowing what the effect would be on her.
Well I can't wait till New Year's It should be so much fun. Some how I agreed to spend it with some friends. One of those friends is Jenny, who I kinda have a thing for. As I mentioned earlier, we once had a moment that turned sour but we recovered for the most part. Her husband will be there. I don't care much for him. I came close to hitting him once. He doesn't know about Jenny and me. I guess that is a good thing, though if he did, he might swing on me, and I wouldn't have to feel bad for hurting him. But I couldn't do that to her.
He doesn't treat her the best. I've heard him say some unkind things to her before, and heard of alot worse things he has said and done. I don't liek him, probably never will. So, yeah, New Year's woohoo. I figure all n all, it should be very entertaining. Good thing is when I drink, I tend to become a free love hippie. Calm and mellow I am. Bad thing is, I believe everyone should be doing someone, even if that someone isn't me (Never tell a security guard she should take his partner out on a date cause she is kinda hot, followed by "I'd do her." It gets the sheriff called on you.)
On that note, I beleive I will end this entry with a quote from my friend Johnnie...
"Arrrrr ya fuckin butt pirate"
i know how everything comes in threes or more.. my aunt died, then less than 3 months later my grandpa died, then my cat got hit by a car and died...then a kid from school wrapped his car around a tree... i didnt really hang out with him so much though... so that dosent count... but then my grandma found out she has cancer in her lymph system.
shes in remission right now thank god.
its amazing their ability to be strong through crazy life situations. i love her so much... and i want to be with her a lot now that shes my last grandparent left... i feel like i want to take care of her.. even though she dosent need it.
god i need a life.