skatman

my neighbor is punding the shit out of this girl. no violence, sex. she is really loud and the bed keeps hitting my wall. i dont mind it, it happens sometimes and i know i do the same when he doesnt have anyone there and i do. he's a cool guy. funny thing is, his ex-girlfriend comes over to seem him soemtimes and without him knowing she comes to see me because me and her are friends and a little more. she works with me. i am going on like zero hours of sleep. last night i was up doing coke until like 2 am and little later and had like 20 red bull and vodkas. i was fucked. i couldnt sleep so i type the only girl i ever loved like an eight page letter about how fucked up our relationship was and how i want us to get back togther from around 4 till 9 i was typing. christ, they are still fucking. she is a little loud. anyways, i dont want to read what i typed cause i was really fucked up but i know i couldnt stop thinking about her when i got home. the girl i'm dating now brought it up and then i couldnt get it out of my head so i asked to be alone. when i was done typing i had released all that shit and feel right to sleep. i had to work and hour or so later but that shit wasnt in my head anymore. it was really strange. i am very scared to read the letter though and i dont know if i should send it to her. chances are that we might get together in the near future but this letter might hinder that chance. i think theyre done. dammit that makes me horny. i think i'll call jeanelle up for a romp. i dont have to work in the morning. maybe i'll go downstairs to the bar and pick up a random slut and get vd.