Derek-RIP
Derek,
I know you didnt mean to die. I know you were just scared and felt like you couldnt take anymore. I know that your mother wasnt trying to be against you. I wish you were still here. I wish i could have talked to you. You always held everything in when you had everyone around you always there for you. I wish i could save you, i wish i could stop thinking about what i could have done and i wish your family and friends would quit feeling guilty too. This is why we are all so angry with you, suicide is such a selfish thing. You leave everyone behind with no explanation and with so much guilt.
I know you were caught up in the moment in all your glory and glam. I know you wish you were here now. You just turned 21, and i just saw you the other day smiling and running around with your dog. Tyson is going to miss you, how could you leave your dog sitting at the door waiting for you to come home and you never will now. Its not fair and lifes not fair.
im so angry,...i just wish there was more...more time,.. more things i could have said...
you were always the type to sneek out of a party without saying goodbye,...and thats definately what you did this time.
April 1984-June2005
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floyd:
I hope you're doing okay, sorry to hear about your loss! 
blulotus:
wow.....my 23 year old cousin just hung himself a few weeks ago.i didn't know him but it still makes me overwhelmingly sad, as does your entry. good luck.