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So I just got back from the doctors and it was pretty much Iceing on this shitty cake all ready,But I'm not even going to frett on it because things happen for a reason and I'm just a little tired of trying to think why for, or let my friends know so they can have a beer on my behalf because they feel bad, they can drink one for me when I'm in the ground and they can tell funny stories of me in remberance... lol though I have to say my doctor did ask me if I just quit? Yup Yup I did.... I just really don't give a fuck anymore...... my heads spinning from my life's experencies. I was a joke thinking that I lived such a different life traveling around meeting so many people hearing there stories, and being honest and carring and nice and.... lol it's a joke...

If I am going to die sooner then my friends and family then I would rather do it alone, So funny how my goal in life was just to make sure that everyone that I cared for and loved new and old was going to be all right.... my nickname was pollyanna well demented pollyanna.......well now, now I just don't care anymore,
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