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For someone like me to let there guard down it's alot, I've been hurt way to much, to let it down anymore. So when I feel free and that I can it feels so good like I have it drank in a 100 years, Like I was starving and and I had my first meal....it feels wonderful....

then when it's taken away, and I never understand or I'm not suppose to I guess it hurts so much more, and I wish I never had that feeling in the first place...... I feel sick......I feel used and dirty, and I don't understand what I did wrong, I wish it was raining so I could stand outside in the rain, I wish I understand what's going on