sixele

So.... yeah Erik is off to Moab tomorrow......
Lots of friggin fun here lemme tell ya.
Aside from me cutting up my arm like hamberger meat I am dealing with things pretty well.... considering........
More tests at the doctors office today. Nothing different from the last time......... I don't think.....
More lonelyness.......... how I hate my life and myself.....
As for today.... I really don't care much for anything.
I want to be nice, but its hard with all the shit thats going on.
I can't stand looking at my own face in the mirror sometimes. I look so old now....... like my grandma.......
Bills bills bills and more bills........
need something or someone to keep my mind off of things for a while.....