Drunken post
I feel as though I'm stumbling through adulthood face first, doing what I think is expected of me and never really considering what it is that I want out of this crazy thing called life.
I occupy my time with school, work and household chores because I feel like I'm expected to, never really considering what I want, except for the occasional video game.
I miss friends that I never see. And I miss being creative. I want to draw more but there never seems to be time or energy. I want to go to school for art, but instead I choose the "safe" path the one that I think will make me money, because I lack the confidences in my own ability to think I can make any money at all in art. I just really want to own a fucking house by the time I'm FORTY is that to much to ask in today's world.
I'm interested in the path I've chosen in the radiology field, but at the same time after THREE YEARS of trying to get in the program at a school that is so fucking crappy that they have a highschool volleyball coach teaching advanced Anatomy & Physiology, is really making me want to say "FUCK IT ALL" I know that I've failed this semester and I know I really don't want to lay down another $800 to take this class all over again. That will just make it a repeat of last year when I failed A&P with an F only to take it again in the spring and get an A. I mean, I'm a smart person, but I'm beginning to think that I just don't have the aptitude for the medical field.
GaaaAAAARRRRRRRaHH!!!!!
RANT OVER
I feel as though I'm stumbling through adulthood face first, doing what I think is expected of me and never really considering what it is that I want out of this crazy thing called life.
I occupy my time with school, work and household chores because I feel like I'm expected to, never really considering what I want, except for the occasional video game.
I miss friends that I never see. And I miss being creative. I want to draw more but there never seems to be time or energy. I want to go to school for art, but instead I choose the "safe" path the one that I think will make me money, because I lack the confidences in my own ability to think I can make any money at all in art. I just really want to own a fucking house by the time I'm FORTY is that to much to ask in today's world.
I'm interested in the path I've chosen in the radiology field, but at the same time after THREE YEARS of trying to get in the program at a school that is so fucking crappy that they have a highschool volleyball coach teaching advanced Anatomy & Physiology, is really making me want to say "FUCK IT ALL" I know that I've failed this semester and I know I really don't want to lay down another $800 to take this class all over again. That will just make it a repeat of last year when I failed A&P with an F only to take it again in the spring and get an A. I mean, I'm a smart person, but I'm beginning to think that I just don't have the aptitude for the medical field.
GaaaAAAARRRRRRRaHH!!!!!
RANT OVER