Tuesday Dec 30, 2003

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The boy flies in tonight!! Yay! I'm so excited. Ten days ago I was sitting on his bed singing Leaving on A Jet Plane after crying my eyes out at the thought of him leaving.

I've always viewed these blissful feelings as weakness and can't say that I've ever opened myself this way to another person. I'd rather have had someone hate me before I could allow myself to love them.

This is so strange that I can be so happy to have another person in my life. It's also odd that I refuse to question the effect he has on me. Usually I pick apart and analyze everything to the point where I've been accused of being paranoid.

I can't worry about this. Everything is a gift.

kiss

"If you allow yourself to feel the way you really feel, maybe you won't be afraid of that feeling anymore."

~ Tori Amos
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obsidity:
Sorry, It's taken me a while to get back to you. And my name change has nothing to do with your asking but it does have to do with the sudden feeling of being exposed in that article.
Anyway, I sort of remember obsidity being about the sun melting plastic. I don't know why. It was a book for a class I was in. And it wasn't so much the book itself but the emotions I had during a film shown in the dream class, which were very strong and sad.
When I woke up, I was so excited by the fact that my mind made up a word and it was my word. Because of that I decided I should keep using it and see what happens. It's funny too because I and other people sometimes think it says obesity. Or that I am saying "obcenity" when I am introducing myself.... So it isn't always the most mellifluous name out there. But it's mine.
To me it means something between obsidian and absurd...darkly strange.
And now it's FAMOUS!!!!
eek! shocked
thanks for asking.
Happy New Year!
darthlunchbox:
*listening closely* I don't see nothin' wrong with a little bump and grind. I don't see nothin' wroooooong.......yup just like I thought, you're gettin' the booty! LoL!

Happy New Years babe kiss

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