sistermedusa

Thanks for all the wedding congrats. You guys are da best.

I went and saw Mom at the care center yesterday. She started crying again. She can't understand why she is there, what's wrong with her, thinks she is bad, has done something to deserve all this, etc. I still can't understand half to 3/4 of what she says. She also complained of very bad pain in her right leg, like a spasm/charleyhorse type of pain. I reassured her the best I could, and I told the aide about the pain. I'm really getting depressed about all this. I drove clear across town today to take her dentures to this place that will fix the hole that has developed. I want to get her out of there and settled in the adult care home. There are still tons of hoops to jump through with the bank (I can get her savings account funds but they still won't let me get her IRA funds) and her insurance. Her neighbor is mailing us some of her mail since it's piling up and there are probably some bills due. I don't know when we'll get a chance to get up there again. We need to get serious about selling her house. I don't know. I'm just getting depressed and tired and fed up. And in the end, the very very end, what will it all boil down to? She will die, and we will have to cremate her and then carry on with our lives. I understand now why so many people are atheists and existentialists. What else do any of us have to look forward to? What, ultimately, is the point of all this?