sissy

okay...

so it'll be a while before i start on my tattoo idea... but i talked to jen about it a little... i have a good idea now as to what's involved... i've never gotten a big huge tattoo before... it will take a couple of preliminary consults... i need to save up at least $400 i think... the outline will take between 3 and 4 hours and she likes to get that all done in one go... something to look forward to anyway... dammit... if i'm gonna do it i might as well do it right... i'm happy with what i've learned...

wrote my short story 1 for school... i hope it's good, but it's hard for me to tell... it's my baby after all... i should be doing math homework... bum di bum... instead i'm drinking wine... i'm doing okay with homework so far... have completed what needs to be completed and on time... i think i've done a good job too... i guess that's really up to the teachers to decide though ... mainly i hope my writing kicks ass... i can deal with getting by in math, though i am doing my best right now... i need to believe, though, that i have talent as a writer... i'm so fixated on that... maybe i've been so scared to start writing because i'm afraid for people to tell me i suck... i need so desperately to believe i'm good at something... i guess that's human...

whateva... i'm still banging out a life for myself... still adjusting to only having myself to blame... only myself to rely on... only myself to worry about... that's not entirely true, but i'm closer to that than i've ever been i guess... more independant... more proud... blah... enough for now...