sissy

yay for class... it's a good one and i haven't even noticed anyone yet who annoys the shit out of me... productivity... have been reading lots of short fiction... have been turning off the fucking tv a lot more often... getting shit done... my only complaint right now is that i need to learn to have fun more often... i think i'm in a post-night shift funk... regulating once again... and it's been grumpy there... i don't know why... trying to figure out whether i did anything to deserve people being bitchy to me... i don't think so...

last night i got a split pea soup injury... i not only don't know how to cook, i'm a danger to myself when i attempt it... biggest cooking blister i have ever had...

i didn't do it on purpose but it's fun to show people ... i'm definately one of those people who likes to wave her scars around under peoples' noses... like i'm 8 years old... i like the attention... that look... hehe...

ps.
i did in fact drive to seaside... 1 hour and 45 minutes each way... 167 miles round trip... ate eggs and bacon and drank tea when i got there... dipped my toes in the ocean and stared raptly at the sun about to set for about 10 minutes... then drove home... i don't know how much good it did me, but it was something different at least... i need to drive up there sometime when i can spend the whole day... maybe take my dog, though with her various neuroses it's often more trouble than it's worth taking her away from home... good times ... i could definately stand to spend the night at the beach... maybe get $90 saved up and stay at the lanai by myself... never done that... claim it as my own...