sissy

ugh... worked two ten-hour days on saturday and sunday... a lil 4 hour shift today... i am fuckin beat... feels like i live there... got a full night's sleep last night for the first time in days... i really do like my job, but that shit can drain you...

gonna drive to my school in the mornin and see what books i need... i would look it up on the internet but my school is appearently not that advanced at this time... grumble grumble... oh well... i could use a good drive by myself... pick out some good music... hope it's sunny...

i really need to meet people... get out of my head and my apartment...

i wish i were feeling more creative right now... more expansive... i was letting myself fantacize about getting a new computer and then realized that i have no money ... hehe... my wittle fantasy is crushed... finances suck...

there's gonna be a big powell's book sale at pioneer courthouse square this week... i am psyched... more books are exactly what i need, i'm sure ... rather, i think i need the experience of shopping for armloads of books i can add to my library ... i have a special relationship with books... they are my solace a large amount of the time...

oh well... goddamn it... i give up trying to wring something meaningful out of my brain to splash on this page... i am distracted right now... maybe later...

ps. just watched donnie darko for the first time... what a mind fuck... i think i liked but i can't totally be sure yet ... i have to let it settle... maybe watch it again... but the song mad world appears to be running over and over in my head... so haunting... ...