sirravennekros

Well, one thing remains the same, unfortunately. Despite all the changes my life has gone through, I still drink too much, and spend way too much money on alcohol. *sigh* Oh well, the bills are paid and everything's clear in my checkbook, so I'm not being irresponsible, right? But it's hard to overcome twenty odd years of conditioning to think of drinking as bad. It makes me feel guilty to enjoy a night with friends and drink till I'm saying irreverant things and making everyone laugh. But it kinda makes me sad that when my friends think about drinking, I'm the person that comes to mind. A far cry from a couple of years back, before I turned 21, and I was determined that I would never drink.
My ex-roomate Matt once told me that I used to have his respect because of the loyal manner in which I held to my morals... I guess I must be a disappointment to him now.
Oh
Well...
It's just grass under the loud dog, now.
I would go drink right now, except that I would just end up wallowing in self absorbed melodrama. Best to drink with people. Then it's happy drunk, not depressed drunk.