sirravennekros

Graaah... I don't know what to do with myself. So I'm gonna vent here where I can be honest, since no one reads it.

First a little background.
I'm single. It happens to me a lot. No one wants to put up with me, I guess I'm either ugly or just that socially inept. But whatever the cause, I am without significant other. So one of my coworkers and I sorta got together for the sole purpose of being "fuck-buddies" Friends-with-benefits, or whatever that's supposed to be. Sex with no strings attached as it were.
Which brings us to my point now.
I can't do it anymore. It's sex, and while my body wants that, craves that, and could use that, I don't want it. Well, let's not say I don't want it... more like I don't want it like that. I don't want sex with no strings attached. I want all the strings. I want a relationship. I want to be tied down, exclusive, someone's special person.
Not a toy to be used and discarded.
I feel used up and empty inside right now. Guilty and stricken. So I have to stop this quasi-relationship.... but I don't know how.
Can't I just be fucking wanted?
What's wrong with that?