So it's been a while since my last blog. I finally got a laptop and I'm trying to spend some more time in chat. Next step is trying to get some profile pictures posted. This month marks a year since probably one of the most difficult months in my life. May 9th last year I received a letter in the mail from a woman I was in a relationship with for almost 3 years. She was writing me from prison where she had been for the past 8 months. She broke up with me 1 month before she was released. My dad died on May 25th. He was 87 and had been ill for about a year and a half. Then 3 weeks after my girlfriend came home from prison she was with another guy. She didn't come to my dads funeral and wasn't even there for me as a friend.
I thought I had put this all behind me but I've been pretty depressed for the passed few weeks. I've been really tired and pretty much lost all motivation. I finally figured out about a week ago that I'm depressed because of everything that happened last year and I need to stop trying to pretend I am not still hurt and resentful about what happened. Hopefully as the 25th passes I will begin to feel better about life again. I didn't intend to blog about this what I actually wanted to blog about was my experience at work Sunday night.
I work 3 jobs. One full-time and 2 part-time. One of my part-time jobs is working as an usher at the Scottrade Center in St Louis. Sunday night we hosted WWE Extreme Rules. A young boy, probably 10 years old a less, in a wheelchair was in my section with a caregiver. The caregiver and I were talking before the event started and she told me she had requested floor seats because this child wanted to meet John Cena. Turns out he has brain cancer and only has about 2 weeks to live. It broke my heart watching this little guy knowing there was nothing I could do take make his wish come true. I can't get this kid out of my mind. Cancer sucks and I feel for anyone who has had cancer or lost a loved one from cancer but it hurts so much more when it affects a child. I just hope being there and seeing John Cena wrestle live brought a little bit of joy this that poor kid.
On a lighter note I visited my surgeon on Thursday and my leg has completely healed. I still can't move my leg like I could before I broke it but I'm going to try physical therapy and see if we can get some more movement back.
I thought I had put this all behind me but I've been pretty depressed for the passed few weeks. I've been really tired and pretty much lost all motivation. I finally figured out about a week ago that I'm depressed because of everything that happened last year and I need to stop trying to pretend I am not still hurt and resentful about what happened. Hopefully as the 25th passes I will begin to feel better about life again. I didn't intend to blog about this what I actually wanted to blog about was my experience at work Sunday night.
I work 3 jobs. One full-time and 2 part-time. One of my part-time jobs is working as an usher at the Scottrade Center in St Louis. Sunday night we hosted WWE Extreme Rules. A young boy, probably 10 years old a less, in a wheelchair was in my section with a caregiver. The caregiver and I were talking before the event started and she told me she had requested floor seats because this child wanted to meet John Cena. Turns out he has brain cancer and only has about 2 weeks to live. It broke my heart watching this little guy knowing there was nothing I could do take make his wish come true. I can't get this kid out of my mind. Cancer sucks and I feel for anyone who has had cancer or lost a loved one from cancer but it hurts so much more when it affects a child. I just hope being there and seeing John Cena wrestle live brought a little bit of joy this that poor kid.
On a lighter note I visited my surgeon on Thursday and my leg has completely healed. I still can't move my leg like I could before I broke it but I'm going to try physical therapy and see if we can get some more movement back.