Hey, whoever reads this.
I'm just writing this because, well, I have no one to talk to about any of my stuff. I feel so lost and I feel as if I'm almost drowning in my life. I feel like there's so much going on I don't know where to start. My head just feels like one big clutter-filled mess, the thought of everything makes me so anxious. I haven't slept properly in weeks. I feel like I'm juggling so many things that I'm doing absolutely nothing if that makes sense?
I just started a fulltime babysitting job, 7 days a week, I'm also juggling my part-time pastry course at TAFE/college and I'm also doing a small business management course which I've barely touched and in the middle of that I'm trying to get my name out there and trying to run/start my own business..
I feel like escaping life. I just feel like running and running and running through complete greenery.. I just want to feel the crisp air brush against my skin as I run through the grass with the sun glistening and bouncing off my skin. I just want to enjoy life really.
My ideal life situation would be living in a little cottage in the country side of some European country with the water near me, so much greenery and blueberry bushes in the front of my cottage. My cottage would have a big rustic open kitchen with the scent of freshly baked bread permeating the house and just up the road would be my little patisserie, all organic and rustic looking. That would be my ideal life.
As much as I try to get help no one has time for me, there's no help and to be honest I'm tired of doing everything on my own. I wish I had some support from (at the very least) my family. And to be honest right now the only thing I could go for is a stiff drink and a hug. I feel so trapped in this house but I don't want to leave the house. I feel so trapped that I feel I'm losing myself as if I'm falling down a bottomless pit and the deeper I fall the more I feel I'm losing myself.
All I want is the simplest outcome for life. But sometimes the most simplistic things are the hardest to obtain.
SirenGC x
I'm just writing this because, well, I have no one to talk to about any of my stuff. I feel so lost and I feel as if I'm almost drowning in my life. I feel like there's so much going on I don't know where to start. My head just feels like one big clutter-filled mess, the thought of everything makes me so anxious. I haven't slept properly in weeks. I feel like I'm juggling so many things that I'm doing absolutely nothing if that makes sense?
I just started a fulltime babysitting job, 7 days a week, I'm also juggling my part-time pastry course at TAFE/college and I'm also doing a small business management course which I've barely touched and in the middle of that I'm trying to get my name out there and trying to run/start my own business..
I feel like escaping life. I just feel like running and running and running through complete greenery.. I just want to feel the crisp air brush against my skin as I run through the grass with the sun glistening and bouncing off my skin. I just want to enjoy life really.
My ideal life situation would be living in a little cottage in the country side of some European country with the water near me, so much greenery and blueberry bushes in the front of my cottage. My cottage would have a big rustic open kitchen with the scent of freshly baked bread permeating the house and just up the road would be my little patisserie, all organic and rustic looking. That would be my ideal life.
As much as I try to get help no one has time for me, there's no help and to be honest I'm tired of doing everything on my own. I wish I had some support from (at the very least) my family. And to be honest right now the only thing I could go for is a stiff drink and a hug. I feel so trapped in this house but I don't want to leave the house. I feel so trapped that I feel I'm losing myself as if I'm falling down a bottomless pit and the deeper I fall the more I feel I'm losing myself.
All I want is the simplest outcome for life. But sometimes the most simplistic things are the hardest to obtain.
SirenGC x
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smiley9:
ha if you need to talk you can kik me 
drunky_the_bear:
It will all work out hun, your cake collection looks awesome, can't wait to see future creations of yours