Gah. So, you wanna know the worst part about being Bi-polar?
Even when you KNOW it's stupid, you can't help but get upset over little things.
This past weekend sucked majorly, and this week has been pretty shit as well. I can already feel myself slipping back into a "down" period and I have been for a minute, so I've been trying to keep myself in check. Today, though, I just can't get it together. I'm crying for no fucking reason over old shit that doesn't even normally bother me anymore. Normally.
And it's all MY typical shit, too. I'm a bad mom, a terrible friend, incompetent, etc.
Now, I KNOW - logically - that none of that is true; but when I get this far... It's like nothing makes sense. I can't even bring myself to argue my own self worth. Ugh.
I'd been doing so well with maintaining it lately, since I'm too sensitive to meds to take any, that I thought I could maybe finally relax about it.
Guess not.
Anyway. No worries about any drastic action, at least. I've learned my lesson about that.
Just gotta keep on keepin on, right?
Even when you KNOW it's stupid, you can't help but get upset over little things.
This past weekend sucked majorly, and this week has been pretty shit as well. I can already feel myself slipping back into a "down" period and I have been for a minute, so I've been trying to keep myself in check. Today, though, I just can't get it together. I'm crying for no fucking reason over old shit that doesn't even normally bother me anymore. Normally.
And it's all MY typical shit, too. I'm a bad mom, a terrible friend, incompetent, etc.
Now, I KNOW - logically - that none of that is true; but when I get this far... It's like nothing makes sense. I can't even bring myself to argue my own self worth. Ugh.
I'd been doing so well with maintaining it lately, since I'm too sensitive to meds to take any, that I thought I could maybe finally relax about it.
Guess not.
Anyway. No worries about any drastic action, at least. I've learned my lesson about that.
Just gotta keep on keepin on, right?
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softnsweet:
yeah, it is a really difficult mood disorder to live through, hang in there. I hope you have some good supportive people in your life.
twodragons:
Hit something.