sionnach

Gah. So, you wanna know the worst part about being Bi-polar?

Even when you KNOW it's stupid, you can't help but get upset over little things.

This past weekend sucked majorly, and this week has been pretty shit as well. I can already feel myself slipping back into a "down" period and I have been for a minute, so I've been trying to keep myself in check. Today, though, I just can't get it together. I'm crying for no fucking reason over old shit that doesn't even normally bother me anymore. Normally.

And it's all MY typical shit, too. I'm a bad mom, a terrible friend, incompetent, etc.

Now, I KNOW - logically - that none of that is true; but when I get this far... It's like nothing makes sense. I can't even bring myself to argue my own self worth. Ugh.

I'd been doing so well with maintaining it lately, since I'm too sensitive to meds to take any, that I thought I could maybe finally relax about it.

Guess not.

Anyway. No worries about any drastic action, at least. I've learned my lesson about that.

Just gotta keep on keepin on, right?