I'm not here right now, physically or for that matter mentally.
I watched my stepdad die and now I have to arrange stuff. Travelling up and down the country on a pretty much 10hour round trip. The funeral is tomorrow. I thought that it might make things better, but I know that it won't. I don't have enough energy for any of it, for my brain, thoughts, soul.
My mum doesn't have the internet, which is why I'm not around. I have to go deal with this insanity. I need a break, I need to get away, but I can't.
I'm not here right now, I miss you all.
I watched my stepdad die and now I have to arrange stuff. Travelling up and down the country on a pretty much 10hour round trip. The funeral is tomorrow. I thought that it might make things better, but I know that it won't. I don't have enough energy for any of it, for my brain, thoughts, soul.
My mum doesn't have the internet, which is why I'm not around. I have to go deal with this insanity. I need a break, I need to get away, but I can't.
I'm not here right now, I miss you all.
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nerotica:
wow...sorry about the loss sounds preety tuff...my condolences...have sweet dreams though might take your mind off the immediate stress... 
edenkitty:
Sympathy, hugs, and sorry. If and when you need someone, you know we are all here for you.