Mood: Ack the apathy has set in 
Music: Empire Records soundtrack
I feel so lost without learning, my brain feels static, I need to create, to think in order to breathe. I don't think that I will ever be happy in just a job, my mind is too vivid and alive to not absorb. Creativity flows through my veins instead of the blood that should be there, my imagination runs riot, yet it never becomes free. It lands in dreams, waking me up with a short sharp shock, rather than flowing onto paper, into words, into storyville. Instead I describe, disjointed and interesting snippets of what I observe.
Autumn is drawing to an end, the bright beautiful red, golds and greens, fade to yellow and brown. Blue sky becomes grey, day becomes never ending night and the cold draws in like an unrelenting menace. The breath from my lungs becomes a patch of vapour, trailing like the smoke of a dragon from my mouth, t-shirts turn to warm cozy sweaters and evenings become internal, sitting under a blanket rather than running in the park. Winter becomes oppressive, until the first snow fall when the world becomes bright and inviting, no matter how cold. People change when the snow falls, they dash like children into drifts, they skid and slide, they make snow angels and remember what is like to be young. Why can't we experience this freedom all the time? why must it be something as mundane as the weather that controls our inner child? The world needs to take a step back and just once, every day indulge in something childlike and wonderful....throw caution to the wind, skip down the street, run with your arms flaling, be carefree, kick a few Autumn leaves, whatever it takes to remember that your not just an adult but something that has grown and experienced. Remember the happiness you had playing games in the park, pretending you were someone else, remember what it is to bond like a child. Maybe then this world would be a different place, somewhere to enjoy. I want to do more than observe, I want to live, I want to enjoy. Today I am going to skip through the shopping mall, singing, eating ice-cream, and I am not going to care what people think.
Questions for my fave lovelies:
1) What childlike thing are you gonna do for me?
2) Where are you dreaming of on a winter's day?
3) gym or shopping? I can't decide.
4) How far around the world would you go for your lover?
*snuzzles*
Sin xx
Edited to add: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO my copy of School of Rock has a crack in it and no longer works *wails loudly*
Music: Empire Records soundtrack
I feel so lost without learning, my brain feels static, I need to create, to think in order to breathe. I don't think that I will ever be happy in just a job, my mind is too vivid and alive to not absorb. Creativity flows through my veins instead of the blood that should be there, my imagination runs riot, yet it never becomes free. It lands in dreams, waking me up with a short sharp shock, rather than flowing onto paper, into words, into storyville. Instead I describe, disjointed and interesting snippets of what I observe.
Autumn is drawing to an end, the bright beautiful red, golds and greens, fade to yellow and brown. Blue sky becomes grey, day becomes never ending night and the cold draws in like an unrelenting menace. The breath from my lungs becomes a patch of vapour, trailing like the smoke of a dragon from my mouth, t-shirts turn to warm cozy sweaters and evenings become internal, sitting under a blanket rather than running in the park. Winter becomes oppressive, until the first snow fall when the world becomes bright and inviting, no matter how cold. People change when the snow falls, they dash like children into drifts, they skid and slide, they make snow angels and remember what is like to be young. Why can't we experience this freedom all the time? why must it be something as mundane as the weather that controls our inner child? The world needs to take a step back and just once, every day indulge in something childlike and wonderful....throw caution to the wind, skip down the street, run with your arms flaling, be carefree, kick a few Autumn leaves, whatever it takes to remember that your not just an adult but something that has grown and experienced. Remember the happiness you had playing games in the park, pretending you were someone else, remember what it is to bond like a child. Maybe then this world would be a different place, somewhere to enjoy. I want to do more than observe, I want to live, I want to enjoy. Today I am going to skip through the shopping mall, singing, eating ice-cream, and I am not going to care what people think.
Questions for my fave lovelies:
1) What childlike thing are you gonna do for me?
2) Where are you dreaming of on a winter's day?
3) gym or shopping? I can't decide.
4) How far around the world would you go for your lover?
*snuzzles*
Sin xx
Edited to add: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO my copy of School of Rock has a crack in it and no longer works *wails loudly*
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(2) Being curled up in bed.
(3) Shopping
(4) around and back