Relationships with people are so hard. My mind is racing right now. Everything seems difficult. I need some release before my soul explodes. Being married is so hard. I don't know how to deal with certain things anymore. How do you handle a situation that you put yourself in? A situation that is bonded as eternal by God? But it goes against what you strongly believe in, who you are, and the principles you plan to live your life by.
Being taken advantage of and still being made to look like the villain, the cold-hearted villain. Why am I in this situation?? Why me? I don't deserve it, I have a good heart. I give my all to people. I have spent a long time trying....and I still find myself in a situation I shouldn't be in. I know that's life. But we all have the power to make the most out of our lives. Should I conform, sit and live and conform for the rest of my life. I have tried, adn I am still trying to live the life I deserve without breaking my bond of love. But now, I just don't know anymore. When is enough enough?
WHy is it so hard for some people to be considerate to others, and be completely fair to other? Why is happinness so damn hard when love is involved? Or is it love?
Why wouldn't you want to give the most for the person you love? Shouldn't you? Is it wrong to have such a sacrificial definition of love? I am so exhausted, i wan to lay and dream and not open my eyes ever again. I wish there was an easy way to solve this. Just this one thing please. My heart cries blood. My mind, my determination are threatened by the power of my heart.
Being taken advantage of and still being made to look like the villain, the cold-hearted villain. Why am I in this situation?? Why me? I don't deserve it, I have a good heart. I give my all to people. I have spent a long time trying....and I still find myself in a situation I shouldn't be in. I know that's life. But we all have the power to make the most out of our lives. Should I conform, sit and live and conform for the rest of my life. I have tried, adn I am still trying to live the life I deserve without breaking my bond of love. But now, I just don't know anymore. When is enough enough?
WHy is it so hard for some people to be considerate to others, and be completely fair to other? Why is happinness so damn hard when love is involved? Or is it love?
Why wouldn't you want to give the most for the person you love? Shouldn't you? Is it wrong to have such a sacrificial definition of love? I am so exhausted, i wan to lay and dream and not open my eyes ever again. I wish there was an easy way to solve this. Just this one thing please. My heart cries blood. My mind, my determination are threatened by the power of my heart.
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scarydoll:
Marriage is about compromise. I don't know your situation, but from my own experience, two people who want their marriage to work will find a way. Best of luck to you! I hope things get better.
vanuslux:
I know what a slippery slope it feels like you're walking through all this. I hope things get worked out and Wyspurr and I are always here for anyone who needs a few words of advise from a pair of old veterans at loving beyond the scope of standardized marriage.