I have tried to live my life without any regrets.I now have one and it's a biggy. i lost a relationship based on my fuck up.and sorry as much as i want to be is not magic and does not fix things.I'm an asshole and feel like shit.other people took my words and twisted them into ammo to use against her.and in not wanting to hurt her i have failed.she says she forgives me but i can not forgive myself. 