sinjun

I have had a fucked up week. Actually I guess I have had a fucked up year so far. I can't seem to keep my shit together. I try to keep a positive attitude, but I get slapped down on a regular bassis. I have been trying to find a job to get myself some money, I seem to be in a catch 22, I need a schedule to get motivated, and I need motivation to find a job. This most recent ass fuck come from the state of Michigan itself. I tried to use my card and it is frooze, I find out that I am being garnished. I can't use my money becaus the ass fucking state froze my account because I had a suspended license a year ago. I got the lovely cum guzzling ass munches taking money a year ago and now I get my nuts in a vice the year after. I have been trying to keep my head on straight, but it is never easy.
My exes birthday is on the 4th. I miss her, I don't necesarilly like her, but I do love what we had. I am way too emotionally addicted to the idea of her, and what I remember about what we had. I have the hardest time around this holliday, and even fireworks can give me the heartache. I had a VERY hard day, one that I barely made it through. I do think that it is funny that SG "suicide girls" keeps me from suicide itself.
I love you peeps, I appreciate all of you. I know that things will sometime get better. Even if it feels like I have hit rock bottom and have been handed a shovel. I will eventually get a career, and be a real person.