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good thing i ordered the new slightly stoopid order on preorder.. it didnt download and is giving me an awful time. funny story; i just got home from shopping and meeting some people from work. #1. dont shop high. i bought these boots that were uber cute. i didnt realize the cheap ass painted zipper on the back 2. esp at 21 cant get thr...
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i lov my dogs since i picked them up yesterday they have been amazing. i dont know if its because they missed me or i missed them more. after our car ride home while my pug sat behind me in the driver seat; they ran around for a while before passing out for naps on my bed together. this never happens. the terrier always finds...
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I'm sitting in Chicago on a layover back home. I went to Kentucky to get closure from the boy. Boy am I ready to be on my own. I'm Thinkin of really finding a therapist to help me work through my anxiety and help me learn to be alone. I obviously have no idea how to truely function without the constant need for body warmth...
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i work wayy too much. but still drive a crappy car..like legit falling apart. and cant pay my loans..i guess more like i living on more than ramen. im a fat kid no matter how hard i try to fight it. i was supposed to be packing tonight to go to ky to the ex.see other blogs. its too much to rehash. ive smoked, drank...
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lost my other half tonight..after a ridick battle while i was working only to call him and get screamed at. ive concluded this is the end. i know tomorrow there may be a phone call. but i cant answer. i dont know why i put my self in these situations where i just get hurt. he texted me the other day and told me how...
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hmm so ive been putting off an update for numerous reasons but im sure most are in my head. ive worked 56 hours since monday dont have a day off till wednesday. i am currently stretched out on my bed in panties trying to get comfy and stretch the knot out under my should blade. it seems unreachable so here i am typing. ive realized...
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im home doing what i do best waiting...got drunk after a horrid night at work..what a mess..sorry ive gone mia again..ive been drinkng sleeping thinking...notice stilll no fucking..on my best behavior and it sucks..life is what it is

woke up with a horrid burning in my chest..its probably the pepper shooters or the buffalo chicken fingers or the cheap ass long islands i drank last night. ugghh and i cant fall back asleep..i wish someone could come climb into bed with me and cuddle up with me. i really need a cuddle buddy i hate sleeping alone ...

lots of self medicating with jameson. its numbing..until i wake up with killer hangovers. however im loving not feeling anything even if its only for a few hours.

well life has been typical to say the least. my non stop working streak had made me a nice little nest egg to start summer off right..see some sand enjoy life a little...my car decided it needed work to be drivable. my savings plan reduced to zero and now im scrownging to get rent together. im trying to stay positive. at least i had the...
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