sinemetu

not doing good..I'm starting to believe i am just like donnie..doomed from the beginning. this is my life and i want out asap i just don't know what to do anymore. i cant stop crying. i left work crying no one could help nor could i talk at one point i was hiding in the office hyperventilating. i just lay here and think about what to do next and im starting to think it doesn't matter so why do anything?..the people who say they r there if i need them of course so pick up the phone when i do..that would make too much sense. dare i pray for a sign? when i already know the answer isn't growth or rebirth? every living thing needs nurturing to grow. whether human or mother nature..im fucked