sinemetu

birthday was a blast for the most part..came home wasted and the ex wasn't happy..he moved out early sunday morning. not used to sleeping in the place by myself its been 2 years ..so im back to not sleeping and stress and working retail this time of year is crazy!!! some lady today got made we weren't open tomorrow and couldn't get the black friday sale today..really?!!! so yeah im kinda grouchy. i mean i am stuck with the fixings for a thanksgiving dinner including a 25 pound bird with no where to go..were having a potluck at work friday so im just going to cook it all..lots of work.good think i have a good amount of jameson in my house ..its pretty sad im having thanksgiving alone but im tired of going to different friends houses knowing i didn't belong there..i always know that by myself..im where i belong. of course i want to one day wake up on thanksgiving nurse some mimosas and prepare a feasts of champs with football and all an sit at a table a talk with people what they r thankful for. its tough though bc i remember when i was younger getting yelled at bc i asked why we celebrated the pilgrims giving away studs, small pox, guns and booze..the beginning of the end of the native americans. i know way to be an exaggerator..i was like 10 or so no lie..
this year i am thankful for the following;
1. my growing sense of wisdom
2. my sense of humor and laughter in general!
3. having goals and learning when they fail how much i just want them more.
4. my new sense of style and really finding myself.
5. as much as i hate making little money..im grateful i am able to still survive and have shelter over my head.
6. booze and good music--always will be
7.knowing sg is here to rant and rave and laugh and im never really alone..someone has to read this shah
i hope everyone eats lots and lots and iif not calls me up and asks for some of this freaking turkey!!!!!!
xoxoxox
me