life is what it is the ridiculousness of my family's functioning is bring me way down..its really only a few of the m i even try to deal with but seriously out of control my aut decided christmas eve eve to sell the kids presents so she can get high and Christmas eve check her self into rehab so she doesnt have to deal but leave the pieces of holiday for a us aka me to fix..soo i break down then call my boss borrow money which sucks bc the snowstorm last weekend already put me in the whole close to 600 bucks..run around do what i can do show up Christmas full of presents my one little cuzin opens his and asks where the rest are. wtf. does their dad even mumble a thank u?/ sure its tough my aunt just fucked up ur holiday but here i am trying to help insane! so next year its a tropical island for me. that's for sure. so know its back to hustling to make up this money trying to get in shape so i can get a job in philly. id be happy with just cocktailing right now. other then that my life has been a little out of the sorts and i dont like it. at all!