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im home doing what i do best waiting...got drunk after a horrid night at work..what a mess..sorry ive gone mia again..ive been drinkng sleeping thinking...notice stilll no fucking..on my best behavior and it sucks..life is what it is

woke up with a horrid burning in my chest..its probably the pepper shooters or the buffalo chicken fingers or the cheap ass long islands i drank last night. ugghh and i cant fall back asleep..i wish someone could come climb into bed with me and cuddle up with me. i really need a cuddle buddy i hate sleeping alone ...

lots of self medicating with jameson. its numbing..until i wake up with killer hangovers. however im loving not feeling anything even if its only for a few hours.

well life has been typical to say the least. my non stop working streak had made me a nice little nest egg to start summer off right..see some sand enjoy life a little...my car decided it needed work to be drivable. my savings plan reduced to zero and now im scrownging to get rent together. im trying to stay positive. at least i had the...
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so last night i had the closest thing to a panic attack ive had in a while..it was scary. i was thinking about my mom and stressing about money and let everything take over.. not good..i had a horrible headache that only got worse after the fact. why am i such a mess? well i need to realize i cant take 2 vacations with in...
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hmm ive been a bit of a slacker lately. well blogging. not working..last week i worked 80 hours and will come close again this week. i need to learn to save to i can slow down.i love the new job. most people i work with are pretty cool. we went skydiving last week. it was amazing. i cant wait to go again. i wasnt scared....
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hmm well i slept most of today but its well deserved its my last day of no work for a long time. my baseball team is gone to complete shit and if the phillies even clinch a wild card spot this season i will be estatic. its not looking good. baseball is my obsession. start my follows tomorrow at the job. im hoping one month...
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i want to go to bonnaroo. please come with/take me

sooo the interview went great felt more like a flowing conversation then an interview. fingers crossed. i then enjoyed the sunshine and bought heart shaped glasses. love them..went to work kinda slow nothing too crazy. then i get a missed call from a weird number with a voicemail. no not the interview. my landlord ( who is in germany for 10 days) his wife. hey...
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job interview tomorrow!! send me lots of positive energy!!!

happy new year... i know im a few days late i went out to a party nye beat as shit..left spent the rest of the night at a small get together which was fun. invented lots of shots. met a ryan gossling look alike but couldnt exchang info bc i was technically there with someone else. super weird situation. wish i could be one of...
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