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soo..still no sleep..however i just watched this amazing you tube video and was in tears..not for the squimish its absolutely insane the way animals have such loving relationships and are so self sufficient.

im so happy it stopped being one billion degrees outside. i never did a deep spring cleaning so tomorrow I am on a mission. im actually excite to purge my life of some crap, have the windows open and fresh air everywhere. Im hoping to start running tomorrow too. I have someone who has been begging me to do a set and ive been super...
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im still super confused and sad and a mess. ive been sleeping alot. went food shopping so i dont have to leave the house. i cant tell u the last time i had food in my house that wasnt beer. i was supposed to have off tomorrow but dont want to waste the day in bed i picked up a shift. i need to get...
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o boy am im a mess of a girl..yesterday i went to a wedding with the boy i refer to my best friend. we met last year and i was in lust with the girl from pittsburgh. at the time i had no idea how dumb i was being. u can read my past blogs about it. we spent new years together he bought me...
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im sooo behind on an update..one i saw pearl jam play philly last night amazing..when they played elderly women i literally cried. i was in the middle of 50 thousand people in the heat and rain all singing along to a song i used to listen to on the way to the beach with my mom and cousin. i think its finally going to be...
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good thing i ordered the new slightly stoopid order on preorder.. it didnt download and is giving me an awful time. funny story; i just got home from shopping and meeting some people from work. #1. dont shop high. i bought these boots that were uber cute. i didnt realize the cheap ass painted zipper on the back 2. esp at 21 cant get thr...
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i lov my dogs since i picked them up yesterday they have been amazing. i dont know if its because they missed me or i missed them more. after our car ride home while my pug sat behind me in the driver seat; they ran around for a while before passing out for naps on my bed together. this never happens. the terrier always finds...
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I'm sitting in Chicago on a layover back home. I went to Kentucky to get closure from the boy. Boy am I ready to be on my own. I'm Thinkin of really finding a therapist to help me work through my anxiety and help me learn to be alone. I obviously have no idea how to truely function without the constant need for body warmth...
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i work wayy too much. but still drive a crappy car..like legit falling apart. and cant pay my loans..i guess more like i living on more than ramen. im a fat kid no matter how hard i try to fight it. i was supposed to be packing tonight to go to ky to the ex.see other blogs. its too much to rehash. ive smoked, drank...
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lost my other half tonight..after a ridick battle while i was working only to call him and get screamed at. ive concluded this is the end. i know tomorrow there may be a phone call. but i cant answer. i dont know why i put my self in these situations where i just get hurt. he texted me the other day and told me how...
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hmm so ive been putting off an update for numerous reasons but im sure most are in my head. ive worked 56 hours since monday dont have a day off till wednesday. i am currently stretched out on my bed in panties trying to get comfy and stretch the knot out under my should blade. it seems unreachable so here i am typing. ive realized...
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