silvermchic

this summer is starting expecially bad. first i am going to school so i can finish by april. bad. then they don't think my brother will graduate high school so nobody tells me when the date is if he does graduate. i found out yesterday it is on the 5th of june. i'm sorry but i don't have the $200 in gas it cost to drive to texas and i don't have the $411 that a plane ticket cost right now. i may cry. i really want to be there for his graduation.

oh yea and then there was last night. i missed a party to come home to my lonely dog. i didn't want he sleeping in the hall all night so i was home by 12:30. i didn't get any sleep because i was worried about the way to drunk and doped up on pain killers matt. i stayed up for 3 hours in the middle of the night waiting for him to call because he was driving around like that. i was pissed. the whole time i am thinking of how i should just never talk to him again. i still am thinking it might be best. i love him. i hate the way he makes me feel and i hate the way he treats me. that is bad. so so far this summer. no texas and to much school and a dick of a ex-boyfriend-ish person. i really need something positive to happen in my life. i know people say to make positive things happen but i can't i am working or at school and have a small amount of michigan friends and no wear to meet new ones. i really need to finish school and go home to texas. i have never felt this homesick.