silverglass25

I wish you could hear her sing this song! It is so heart breaking. The "you" in the last chorus is refering to God, but I suppose you could insert who ever you wanted.

Here is a sample...go to Beautiful

I was talking to my mom today about alot of things. I tend to be a really intense person with lots and lots of thoughts about human behavior and the proper and correct response that reflects a kind and caring personality. I can't get a grasp on it. I keep wondering why some people just have it all! They get it all! And there are others who try and try and are good people and have to work so hard just to make a step in the right direction.

The only thing that I can conclude is, I don't know!
I don't know why some struggle and others don't, I don't know why I can't deal, and others cope just fine, I don't know why as I get older I feel so much more immature and I don't know why everything has to be so complicated!

There was a time in my life when EVERYTHING was fun and exciting and that was when I was little. When I couldn't wait to get outside and play on the jungle-gym. I couldn't wait to hang upside down on the monkey bars and play hide and seek with my sister, and to play pretend with my friends, and to go out to grandma and grandpa's and ride horses, and to look forward to saturday morning cartoons and to color my coloring books and to read an adventure story and dream about being a might princess that kills all the bad guys! I couldn't wait to play dress up with my grandma's old dresses and put on lipstick and do my hair! I once tried to do my hair in a beehive....hahaha.....not so much......then with all my hair falling down around my face I put this cherry red lipstick on, and for some crazy reason decided that I wanted to use it for blush.....my face was cherry red for TWO days! *oh, the good times!

Lately, I have been reaching down inside my depths of my soul and pulling out that part of me that breathes easier and has fun and beautiful memories of winning the battles of life, and finding the beauty in me and the surrounding areas. I feel like I can fly away to any part of the world and see beauty around me! I can see the beauty in each person. I can see in their eyes the haunting sadness and the beauty it holds. I can see the pain and want to soothe the heartache, I want to reach out and take away the tears that fall from the eyes of the hurting!

I want to show people how beautiful they are! How wonderful life can be and that beauty doesn't lie in a relationship, but in the heart of each of us! The person that we are with should complete us, not just be there. They should bring out the best and calm the worst, they should be worthy of the heart you are giving them, they should want to go to the ends of the earth for you! They should tell you everyday how beautiful you are, how amazing you are and you should see that in the person you love too!

I don't mean to be cheesy, or boring.....but have you ever been with someone, who you weren't attracted to but were friends with (boy or girl) and took their head in your hands and just looked at them. I mean really really looked at them and without thought of yourself, and saw them! Just them! You reconginzed that person as truely amazing and were so glad you had a friend that was so incredible!

I have! It changed me!

I love all of you for just listening to me! .....no...I am not cracked out! I just finally am getting it! I am getting that I can let myself go and I won't be forgotten, and I can finally give back to others what I want to have given to me!