silvercharmer

Ok, so this last Sunday, I went to church, no big deal. Sat with my friend, the usual. After church, since I didn't have to work, we decided to go to lunch, which was planned out for 5 days or so. Whatever. After church, Chenelle and I are talking about how we're going to lunch and how she's starving, "let's go right now after I pick up Harris", that's her boyfriend. Cool. She says we "have to go right now" because she's so hungry, so I rush over to the restaurant, thinking she's pretty much right behind me. I get a table, no problem. I even called her when I got to the restaurant just to make sure she didn't beat me there and to make sure that it was only going to be the three of us. She says yes.

I sit. I order a mojito. I eat chips and salsa. I get a call 15 minutes later apologizing because she had to stop real quick to get her lip waxed and she's just getting to where her BF's at. I'm not really annoyed at first, but it's when I get off the phone that it dawns on me that she's still 15 minutes away. That's when I get annoyed. I tried my hardest to bite my tongue. They walk to the table, she puts her stuff down, says sorry again, and walks to the bathroom. It really should not be news to me. I know she runs late for everything, but this is the first time that her running late effects me. I made a comment when she comes back from the bathroom about keeping me waiting to get her lip waxed. She gets mad and says, "how about you not ruin lunch, Aimee."

Before this, Valentine's Day, she asks me if I can buy her her boyfriend's cologne she wants to give him and she'll pay me back on Friday. I leave my house, go to my work, buy what she wants, and even drive it all the way to her work. Cutting time out of my studying to do this. I was a little annoyed but whatever. I got a break from studying and free food. SHE'S the one that told me she was going to pay me on Friday. I don't ask anything of it. It was the Sunday of lunch (the 20th) that I asked when she's going to pay. She said she'd bring it to me this week. No problem. It's now almost Friday and I was out and about last night and figured, rather than have her come all the way to me, I'd come to her and get the money. No answer.

Tonight before work, I ask her if she got my text. She says no. I ask again about me coming by tomorrow since I have to go to school to drop off a paper, she says I'm bugging her and asks if all our friendship is worth is $46. She's mad at me for lunch saying I was acting childish and mean. And in all fairness, I probably was, but am I not allowed to be upset too? Is me waiting for her because it's convenient for HER ok? All I wanted was a phone call beforehand to say, "Hey, I need to stop somewhere, do you mind?" Not a half-assed "I'm sorry" after the fact when you know I have school work to do and YOU'RE the one that tells me we have to hurry.

I'm sorry, I didn't know that's how friendships worked. My bad. I didn't know I wasn't allowed to have feelings. I'm not perfect. I know I probably acted childishly and I take full responsibility for it but how is it that when I feel mistreated, no matter how childishly I may act, my feelings don't matter and now all of a sudden, the other person is upset and it's all my fault. I'm not saint. I'm not perfect, but aren't you allowed to tell someone how you feel? I was mad. I'm not allowed to be mad? And now, I'm being chastised for asking for what SOMEONE ELSE had promised me. I didn't put a time-table on when she would pay me back. SHE did. I'm just trying to keep it to that time-table that I was promised because I'll be damned if I'm going to be taken advantage of by someone who makes $22,000 a year more than I do. You tell me you're going to do something, I'm going to do my best to make sure you keep to what you promised.