So, after spending a few days away from my mobile communication device (mostly to do with the fact that I've been all emo... emotional for seemingly no reason and easily irritated), I've finally decided to stop thinking and wishing about moving back to Florida and actually do it. So, as of June, I will be a Florida resident yet again.
I have been reluctant to make the decision because I haven't wanted to leave my church and friends behind, but my family (my dad and grandma mostly) and my intense desire to acquire a degree from the University of Florida have spurred me into finally making it happen. I've been sitting back for far too long, relatively content just moving forward in whatever step that was naturally going to progress in my direction and have these vague desires for my future but not acting upon them.
So, I'm going to make it a reality. I've been way too concerned with being physically close to the friends I have here, but if I'm always constantly making sure I please everyone else, where is that going to get me? Really. Anyway, so yeah. I'm moving. And I'm so excited and at peace with my decision. I'll miss my church and friends here but it's time to move close to family since I have the opportunity to do so. My worst fear is that something happens to my dad or grandma before I'm able to see them again, so I'd rather be close just in case. I hate to think of the worst-case scenarios but anything can happen and I hate to be so far away. It's been two years since I've seen my dad or grandmother and it kills me whenever I see family photos and I'm not there. It kills me just as much to know I have family in California that I'm missing too, so as much as I'm torn, UF has been my determining factor.
Anyway, I don't know why I felt the need to explain so much. It almost sounds like I'm trying to convince people that this is the right decision for me. Who knows... maybe I'm just trying to convince myself... I know that there is a certain way people have come to know me when it comes to moving and the decisions I make. It's going on 7 years since I've been the wreckless decision maker I've been known to be and I guess I just don't want to be known as that any more.
*sigh* I explain too much. Just the way it goes when we live in this world of "blame and fault." Anywho...
Muchos besos!
Aimee
I have been reluctant to make the decision because I haven't wanted to leave my church and friends behind, but my family (my dad and grandma mostly) and my intense desire to acquire a degree from the University of Florida have spurred me into finally making it happen. I've been sitting back for far too long, relatively content just moving forward in whatever step that was naturally going to progress in my direction and have these vague desires for my future but not acting upon them.
So, I'm going to make it a reality. I've been way too concerned with being physically close to the friends I have here, but if I'm always constantly making sure I please everyone else, where is that going to get me? Really. Anyway, so yeah. I'm moving. And I'm so excited and at peace with my decision. I'll miss my church and friends here but it's time to move close to family since I have the opportunity to do so. My worst fear is that something happens to my dad or grandma before I'm able to see them again, so I'd rather be close just in case. I hate to think of the worst-case scenarios but anything can happen and I hate to be so far away. It's been two years since I've seen my dad or grandmother and it kills me whenever I see family photos and I'm not there. It kills me just as much to know I have family in California that I'm missing too, so as much as I'm torn, UF has been my determining factor.
Anyway, I don't know why I felt the need to explain so much. It almost sounds like I'm trying to convince people that this is the right decision for me. Who knows... maybe I'm just trying to convince myself... I know that there is a certain way people have come to know me when it comes to moving and the decisions I make. It's going on 7 years since I've been the wreckless decision maker I've been known to be and I guess I just don't want to be known as that any more.
*sigh* I explain too much. Just the way it goes when we live in this world of "blame and fault." Anywho...
Muchos besos!
Aimee
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longlostsapper:
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fabes:
Oh man thanks! Yeah, I need to buy a shit load of stuff to screw around with, but I'm still jobless, so I might have to borrow and practice on my friends. I think I wanna gear more towards high fashion make up artistry and/or cinematic. I'd love to apply at those places buuuut, how are they on hiring dudes?