silvercharmer

Transformers 2 kicked ass, in my opinion. Thank you, chipdanger!! My sister says thank you too.

I got very little sleep last night, but that's okay. There has been a lot going on in my head the last day or so. Namely with the guy I'm now seeing.

I've been operating in fear and doubt, mostly that someone can like me as much as they say they do. Just really allowing someone to care for me is a scary scary thing for me and yesterday, that fear got the best of me. I was living and operating from that and just really doubting who I was. But that's over and done with. I know who I am and I'm not going to allow myself to transition back to that petty human inclination to allow my relationships to define who I am and mold myself into someone that someone else wants me to be. I'm not saying that that's what he was doing, but I was in the mindset that I will do whatever it takes to make this work.

The most I am willing to do to make a relationship work is to call myself out on the BS I operate from. Own up and be responsible for the reality I create for others, stand from a place of "how can I make this world a better place," and really create that every day for myself. I know who I am. I have a strong grip on who I know myself to be and I refuse to let that go. It's a constant struggle to live your life from what's possible and NOT from circumstances. No more. Yes, I acknowledge that that is the nature of what it is to be human, but from here on out, it's always going to be in the forefront of my mind and my intentions.

So, today, it's time to bring myself back to where I stood from from the beginning and really create that space for Anthony as well. I'm confident all will go well, even tho I'm scared shitless to do it.

Courage is not NOT being afraid, but of being afraid and taking action anyway.

Muchos besos!
Aimee
My sister and I in line to get into Transformers last night.

The line.

This one's from Ladies Night last week.