silvercharmer

I lurked on SG for a solid 4 months before finally getting an account. I was zotted back during the "massive exodus" of SGs in 2005 (I think). I didn't think I ever wanted to come back, but I stayed in contact with someone who was on staff. One day, maybe 6 months later, I thought I'd try to get my account back. Asked for a favor and here we are. Original account.

I'm currently a part-time student working on my undergrad degree in Biology. I have gone back and forth a few times, thinking I was ready for college and finding out, I was not... twice. I'm unemployed but the government has been taking care of that a bit since I'm in school, and that's awesome. I don't know what I would be doing had I not taken the initiative to get my happy ass back in school.

I'm half hispanic... my mom being from Guatemala and her parents being half Indian and half Spanish. My dad's white with a diverse European background, but found out recently that there's a lot of German in my blood... or rather in his blood. Sometimes I forget that I'm tan. I think I'm white sometimes by my own standards but when I look at pictures or stand next to people, I'm rather dark. I don't think I look out-of-the-ordinary pretty. In fact, I think I look like your average white girl (at least in my head I feel like I do sometimes).

I spend a lot of time assisting around Landmark Education courses. I don't know what my life would be like had I not involved myself so deeply into the distinctions that allow me to create my life in any way I want and in any way I see possible.

I'm very positive and uplifting. I can see the bright side in any situation. I'm very care-free and easy-going. I want to accomplish everything I have ever thought I wanted to do. I will admit, I do have my moments of self-pitying and feeling like I'm not going anywhere. That's where Landmark steps in. I owe my life to the people involved and my sister in California for turning me on to it.

I've traveled a lot. From March 2006 to about June 2007, my address changed at least 6 times. In the year 2007, I lived in three different states (Florida, California and Colorado). I've gotten over the need to leave my situation when things get unpleasant and hard. I feel like I've grown up finally. I have never been in a relationship longer than 4 months. I loved him with all my heart but wasn't ready to settle down. I miss him and think about him always. I even pray that God bring him back into my life, but I've amended that prayer to God bringing someone into my life that is to teach me something of value... and someone to build a life and family with.

I go to a Christian church but I don't call myself a Christian. I do not believe Jesus is my Lord and Savior. I do not believe He is my one and only path to God and Heaven. I just believe He was a Holy and good man that just happened to know a little more about God than we do. But I do believe God exists. I believe in free-will and STRONGLY believe that EVERYTHING happens for a reason.

I don't believe in Hell... at least as a place. I believe it is a perception that is self-imposed. I believe everyone ends up in the same place. And I could be entirely wrong, but NO ONE is going to know the truth of what happens to us after we die until we're already dead and it's too late to come back and tell anyone about it.

One HUGE thing I got out of Landmark was how closed off I am from people. I crave to be close to people but I only let them in so far. I've allowed myself to care for people but have not allowed them to care about me. I resigned myself a long time ago that I didn't deserve to have everything I wanted out of life but I have now committed to living my life and learning to let people love me. I want to fall in love again.