silvercharmer

I'm coming to the realization that now is not the right time for Ryan and I. I want so desperately for him to want the same thing I want. He talks of leaving Denver, but I want him to want me to go with him. I want him to say "we" in this case. I would gladly go where ever he is, but I want him to want that. I want to makes plans with someone, I want to experience things with someone... and I want that someone to be him.

Thus, I'm going to make California work until he asks me to go where he is.