I'll write this here because most of the people I know in real life won't be reading this...
I just got off the phone with my sister in California. If you know anything about my history, you'll know I've gone back and forth with the idea of moving out there.
So, the time has come and I made a decision. My sister's company has two openings for a receptionist, a house that she owns is soon to be vacated and in need of renters, my sister just started a new position on her company that's she's worked for for years that is requiring quite a bit of commitment and training, and my niece and nephew are in need of someone to help out. Well, mostly my sister and her husband.
So, since I have no commitments here, and she's been trying to convince me to finally do what I've been talking about for years now, I'm going for it.
Currently, I have no place to live. I'm sleeping in my brother's room, still living out of my suit cases. Half of the clothing I own is in my car. I'm not in school. I've only been at my job for a week and a day. Everything is lined up and I'm finally ready to do it.
My sister has tried to get me out there so many times, it's not even funny. I've talked about moving out there for close to 10 years now. I've had the opportunity to go, but I've been too chicken shit to make the plunge. This is what I've dreamed of for years and now I feel like I'm ready. I'm not dating Ryan any longer. He'll still be a close friend, but I have nothing. My sister's doing her own thing which is amazing. I want her to. It's time for us to live our own lives and it's time for me to live my life without consulting anyone else. I say I've done that in the past, but this is the first time that I'm making a decision solely based on myself, and no one else. No more mom. No more dad. No more Michelle. I love Michelle, but I need to experience life before it's too late and I hate the idea of living with regret. I've done things in my life because I wanted to, but now it's time to really make a change. I've gone back and forth so many times, I need a clean break. And really figure out where I belong. I'll never figure it out until I spread my wings and see what I'm capable of.
I've missed out on so many years of those kids' lives. Since they were born, I've had an intense love for them, almost as if they were my own. I'd die for them, and I really need to take the opportunity to be around them and really get to know them. They don't know how much they mean to me and I really want to show it. They're 14 and 13. Brent just turned 13 on Monday. I'm tired of missing birthdays and holidays. The family here and in Florida have had me for 23 years, it's time I spend time with family in California and really get to know them.
So... by next week, looks like I'll be a Californian.
Besos!
Aimee
I just got off the phone with my sister in California. If you know anything about my history, you'll know I've gone back and forth with the idea of moving out there.
So, the time has come and I made a decision. My sister's company has two openings for a receptionist, a house that she owns is soon to be vacated and in need of renters, my sister just started a new position on her company that's she's worked for for years that is requiring quite a bit of commitment and training, and my niece and nephew are in need of someone to help out. Well, mostly my sister and her husband.
So, since I have no commitments here, and she's been trying to convince me to finally do what I've been talking about for years now, I'm going for it.
Currently, I have no place to live. I'm sleeping in my brother's room, still living out of my suit cases. Half of the clothing I own is in my car. I'm not in school. I've only been at my job for a week and a day. Everything is lined up and I'm finally ready to do it.
My sister has tried to get me out there so many times, it's not even funny. I've talked about moving out there for close to 10 years now. I've had the opportunity to go, but I've been too chicken shit to make the plunge. This is what I've dreamed of for years and now I feel like I'm ready. I'm not dating Ryan any longer. He'll still be a close friend, but I have nothing. My sister's doing her own thing which is amazing. I want her to. It's time for us to live our own lives and it's time for me to live my life without consulting anyone else. I say I've done that in the past, but this is the first time that I'm making a decision solely based on myself, and no one else. No more mom. No more dad. No more Michelle. I love Michelle, but I need to experience life before it's too late and I hate the idea of living with regret. I've done things in my life because I wanted to, but now it's time to really make a change. I've gone back and forth so many times, I need a clean break. And really figure out where I belong. I'll never figure it out until I spread my wings and see what I'm capable of.
I've missed out on so many years of those kids' lives. Since they were born, I've had an intense love for them, almost as if they were my own. I'd die for them, and I really need to take the opportunity to be around them and really get to know them. They don't know how much they mean to me and I really want to show it. They're 14 and 13. Brent just turned 13 on Monday. I'm tired of missing birthdays and holidays. The family here and in Florida have had me for 23 years, it's time I spend time with family in California and really get to know them.
So... by next week, looks like I'll be a Californian.
Besos!
Aimee
jonnytrrrash7:
this all sounds well thought out to me. go for it!