silouette

I am ever so frustrated at the moment. One of the things i hate most in the world is being criticized and misunderstood for something that you are true to the core not. I have always believed myself to be an honest, kind and loving person, and on top of that, a good friend. You live your life having friends that you think have very high thoughts of you, and respect you. But then you wake up one day and suddenly you are the worst friend in the world and there is nothing you can do or say to change their opinion of you. I am humble enough to say that i have many faults and shortcomings, and am not always the most considerate person in the world. I always thought that the job of a good/best friend was to accept someone for their shortcomings, imperfections and faults. To be honest with someone always, and talk about life and frustrations and love. I thought a friend is someone who is understanding of the others circumstance.. I am so fed up with being criticized for a fault that i never knew i had, one that was never brought to my attention. Things that have happened in the past that i thought were long past resolved are now being thrown in my face for no reason. Is it worth being someones friend if all they can do is criticize me? You think you truly know who your friends are until you are proven wrong. I am so confused right now and frustrated beyond belief. This is all probably coming out like textual vomit. Is my point even clear?

I guess i just feel like my friend(s) have/has misinterpreted me somehow. the person she sees me to be is not one that i identify with. She is selfish and expects me to come to her every beck and call. We both have busy lives, and i have other very important priorities and she cannot be at the top of my list all the time. Is that wrong of me? She does not understand that it seems. I am just so over this, trying to prove myself to someone who no longer seems worthy of my attention.

Have any of you ever been in situations similar to mine? What did you do? what were the results? HOw did you deal with the frustration? I hate drama so bad and try to live my life as free from drama as possible . I feel like she thrives on it and is creating it. Like a fifteen year old high school cheerleader. Shmlaaaarrfff!

All this negativity is consuming me and my attitude. i wish i could just be absolved from the entire scenario.