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Go. Cubs. Go. biggrin Division Title 2008 baby! hell yes! biggrin

Spent the day in the city, and my city is glorious smile
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ketamine:
thanku 4 the compliments and support

kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss
otoki:
Well, as to the stalker comment, I've already put 11 people on ignore because of their irritating and presumptuous PMs. So...yeah. Post away!biggrin
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and a devil never cries..

more later, but none of its uplifting. It's just more self psychoanalysis thats depressing or upsetting mostly.

more than anything for now though, its killing me knowing she got to be happy while I get to stay in pergatory
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alessia:
Im sure that being sick it's not fun at all... Luckly now I'm feeling better but I have to take 4 pills per day.. buuuuu so I cant drink alcohol mad I can't smoke mad I cant go out this weekend mad
rubix:
bikes and girls- common everyone knows that tongue lol

haha i dont even know why im so enthusiastic about bdays- cause i usually just stay home.
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I hate birthdays. Reminds me of how little Ive done in the past year, how much I need to do this year. Along with a few other things that always manage to keep them crappy, oh well. 24.
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manwi:
thanx hunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
velvet_petal:
I am back to normal now that the power has been restored. Even ate some fresh food today! After all the canned stuff, even my cooking tasted good.
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Awesome night. Finalized another loss, pretty much ending a 10yr friendship (my best friend supposedly, but apparently not) and officially making it so that everthing after highschool in my life has been horrible. ( I hated High school btw, 4yrs of being annoyed with the ppl around me and being the loner, the loner part I didnt mind, it was the jackasses I had to...
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collide:
thank you for sending the love smile

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

i'm sorry to hear about everything you're going through, i know how you feel...i went through a similar existentialist phase last year when i was so burnt out with school, work and everything, i just completely lost faith in the world and started to train myself to feel utterly stoic and indifferent towards everything...that was my way of coping with control, and it did nothing but leaving me feeling empty and unaccomplished. emotions are what makes us human, and remain emotionally aloof is to distort your own nature and therefore has dire effects.

i am now at a much better place now having finally fallen in love for the first time in my life...know your goals, know what YOU want in life and what you have to do to get it, i know it'll take time but as long as you believe in yourself and remain true to yourself, you will slowly be able to trust again, because there are amazing people in the world.



i wish you the best of luck with everything!

rubix:
you're favorite!!! thats what i like to hear!!! smile

Thanks for the love!!
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I need a license. A license to bitch-slap / slug / induce pain to anyone I deem inexcusably stupid (example snyone who follows scientology) or ignorant of the world condition (republicans) . (add all the bad drivers out there) I really do think Im qualified for this, over qualified really. I want this license/job to exist.

If the next president is not Obama, I might...
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jena:
smile Thank you for reading it! I'm glad you liked it. smile
jena:
Oh and I'm all over this election too. Get the fuckers out.
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benten:
SC best character is Kilik although Ivy is the hottest, shame shes sooo slow. x x
rubix:
Thank you very much smile kiss
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I want to have sex. I miss sex, I hate thinking about it because Im of the impression that if you walk around with sex on the brain 24/7 girls have some built in radar and they know Im thinking about it, and in turn assume Im just a perv who doesnt want anything else. I also hate thinking about sex because I think of...
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velvet_petal:
Be it sexually, intellectually, or emotionally, we all go through periods where we feel that certain areas are being neglected or are wasting away. It's never a good feeling.

As far as the missed opportunities while you were involved....well, that is all part of being in a monogamous relationship. That's the deal. We can all go back in our lives and through hindsight feel regretful for sacrifices if a gamble doesn't pay off...but that is not entirely accurate. While you were in the relationship you were in love and felt it the right thing to do. Perhaps what you can take from the past is to not get into a longterm long distance type thing again as so much is stacked against things working out.

As far as funk in your junk....sadly there are no guarantees that it wouldn't happen if you selpt with only one person versus 50. With the internet and all of the different groups which cater to every taste, I think sex is pretty easy to find if that's all you are really after. Howerver, you seem more like someone who's looking for something a little more meaningful than a quick shag...even if it's only a loose sort of situation with someone you know. You'll get there and find something good which is also physical.
nobodyherenow:
Wait a minute...my list sounds like you?
Then I think the real question is, why haven't I been spying on you yet! wink
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adria:
hey, nice ninja turtles!

can you tell me where you saw me in that music video?

i havent been able to find it yet.
mrchairman:
Hey, cool TMNT, I think I bought a set just like that for my nephew way back.
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edit. (again? I know) eff a new post lol.

Wrap me in a bolt of lightning
send me on my way still smiling
maybe thats the way I should go
straight into the mouth of the unknown

finally put it all together
nothin really lasts forever
I had to make a choice that was not mine
I had to say goodbye for the last time...
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viking:
"or god forbid play volleyball..." hahaha! aw! like soya, they tease me too biggrin
by the way, i added you because someone in a thread said they had a crush on you. it was like a, member you have a crush on thread. so, people obviously fancy you! dont worry! i didnt tell you that straight away in case you were weird biggrin
blasian:
hey stranger..how are things!? hope all is well!! guess what?! my set will be in member review soon! finally huh!!! wink
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Holy shit. I had a night that wasnt boring! woohoo! 3rd shift will kill any attempt you make at a personal life, but I spent a few hours today hanging out with my 3 oldest friends from highschool havin beers laughin about lots of old shit. cool times. (finally) smile

Now if that could happen again before the new century thatd be awesome! whatever tongue


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riana:
aww thanks :$ hehe, well i have to go, gotta work, ttyl ciao
kay:
I feel that way about my friends. I only usually get to see them once a year, sometimes not even then. Good times are usually had though.

Good luck on 3rd shift.

~cheers
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You know Im really tired of this mental thing thats been happening, as if I wasnt depressed enough with the tidal wave of memories Ive been having of her and the happiest Ive ever been; (in a general 'life is better than good sort of way) but now I seem to have bought dryer sheets that have a scent that brought all kinds of shit...
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yazla:
You sound like me, with the sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I can relate with the memories part, memories are not just little pictures in your head, everything and anything would have been recorded by your brain, including anything touch, smell, taste and any other senses.....so what you were doing was not abnormal, it was just your brain being triggered by a certain smell that relates to a past event.

I remember when i came back from a trip, i sprayed this perfume all over my pillow at night until it ran out, before bedtime........so i can close my eyes and pretend i was back where i was.

You're going to be in a cycle of depression that will spiral down, i'm sure there are more things triggering the feelings that you might have, but trying to make sense of it by making a direct point to past relationship will only lead you to be in the same spot, because you can't go back in time and change it.
Try to sit down one day and right down (yes cliche), what other things around you ....make you depressed, (career, work, life, family, issues with your bowel movements, your balls need emptied,.........etc...etc). This can help you become aware of other feelings and situations in your life that you might not have been aware of before.
velvet_petal:
What is she doing now?
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Ok, so after I started this new 3rd shift work schedule (1130pm - 730am puke ) needless to say I dont recommend that, I had to hold off on going to the gym much after work because my body was still shifting for about 3wks, (this would be the 5th), and last week I started going again, only 3 days with a light whole body workout,...
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mrs_hansolo:
AGH I hate that shit also, I was working out like crazy for about two months, and then I took three days off and bam it all goes down the drain. Just hang in there, try working out at home like doing sit ups and push up, that always works. hehehehe. Don't worry its better than gaining tons and tons of weight!! surreal
feather:
Aw, you're too nice! Glad you liked the set!