silentwhisper

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I am back to normal now that the power has been restored. Even ate some fresh food today! After all the canned stuff, even my cooking tasted good.

Thank you for reading it! I'm glad you liked it.

Oh and I'm all over this election too. Get the fuckers out.

Be it sexually, intellectually, or emotionally, we all go through periods where we feel that certain areas are being neglected or are wasting away. It's never a good feeling.

As far as the missed opportunities while you were involved....well, that is all part of being in a monogamous relationship. That's the deal. We can all go back in our lives and through hindsight feel regretful for sacrifices if a gamble doesn't pay off...but that is not entirely accurate. While you were in the relationship you were in love and felt it the right thing to do. Perhaps what you can take from the past is to not get into a longterm long distance type thing again as so much is stacked against things working out.

As far as funk in your junk....sadly there are no guarantees that it wouldn't happen if you selpt with only one person versus 50. With the internet and all of the different groups which cater to every taste, I think sex is pretty easy to find if that's all you are really after. Howerver, you seem more like someone who's looking for something a little more meaningful than a quick shag...even if it's only a loose sort of situation with someone you know. You'll get there and find something good which is also physical.

Wait a minute...my list sounds like you?
Then I think the real question is, why haven't I been spying on you yet!

Hey, cool TMNT, I think I bought a set just like that for my nephew way back.

You sound like me, with the sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I can relate with the memories part, memories are not just little pictures in your head, everything and anything would have been recorded by your brain, including anything touch, smell, taste and any other senses.....so what you were doing was not abnormal, it was just your brain being triggered by a certain smell that relates to a past event.

I remember when i came back from a trip, i sprayed this perfume all over my pillow at night until it ran out, before bedtime........so i can close my eyes and pretend i was back where i was.

You're going to be in a cycle of depression that will spiral down, i'm sure there are more things triggering the feelings that you might have, but trying to make sense of it by making a direct point to past relationship will only lead you to be in the same spot, because you can't go back in time and change it.
Try to sit down one day and right down (yes cliche), what other things around you ....make you depressed, (career, work, life, family, issues with your bowel movements, your balls need emptied,.........etc...etc). This can help you become aware of other feelings and situations in your life that you might not have been aware of before.

What is she doing now?

AGH I hate that shit also, I was working out like crazy for about two months, and then I took three days off and bam it all goes down the drain. Just hang in there, try working out at home like doing sit ups and push up, that always works. hehehehe. Don't worry its better than gaining tons and tons of weight!!

Aw, you're too nice! Glad you liked the set!