I’m not okay 😭

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I’m honestly not okay, I’m very sad and really unhappy. The last several years have been really hard. I’ve been trying so hard to change and be a better person. Even though my career is taking off, when it comes to dating and relationships for whatever reason it doesn’t work out or fails. I’ve been lied to and taken advantage of and it breaks my heart, it makes me feel like I’m not worth anything to anyone. It damages my trust, my self esteem and self worth. And when that happens the demons come creeping in and fill my head with negativity. I’ve tried so hard to overcome my anxiety, trauma and depression but it pulls me down. I’ve tried suicide once and there have been many times I really wanted to die. I’m not happy with who I am, I look in the mirror and I can’t seem to love myself. I’m still struggling with anger and everything else, but I feel I can’t win and I don’t care anymore. I’ve kept it inside for as long as I could but I can’t hide it anymore 😭😭😭😭😭

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There is no need to restrain yourself in words. You don't need to disguise yourself so that others don't see how bad you are. A huge resource of your mental health is spent on this. You have to talk about it or it will eat you up from the inside. The closest people you can trust can help here. Just talk it out. If someone tells you that you're not trying hard or what you're doing wrong, they can't understand what's inside you. With such people who are better not to contact. They can only add negative thoughts. When you feel bad, you're vulnerable. The safest way and at the same time the most terrible for you is to go to a professional. I also had a period when I went to a specialist and even took antidepressants.You're not alone! And you can do it! With love❤️
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Sorry. I missed a space. It turned out to be a link. I didn't want.  But I can't edit my comment in any way because I noticed it just now.

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