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So it's almost here. The day I've been dreading all year...

Dec 18, 2021
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Tomorrow is the day my mother died last year. I know it's been a year but it's just like it happened yesterday to me. I'm surprised I can function enough to even type this as I've been trying to wreck my head just so I don't think about this. But, it's going to happen whether I want to cop to it or not. So, yeah, this time of year now sucks major ass for me. To top it off, the day after tomorrow, would have been her birthday too. She died on the night before her birthday. Fuck me...my dad isn't doing well with this and neither is my brother. But, she was more than my mom. She was my friend too. I miss you so much mom and I wish we were able to still talk about things but, that's just not possible.

So, we both loved Smashing Pumpkins and "Disarm" off of Siamese Dream was a favorite of both of us right out of the gate. This is for her and everyone else who enjoys feeling the way "Disarm" makes you feel. See you sometime after this fucked weekend.

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