- on headshot's album
- on headshot's blog post
- on cerebus666's post on silentobjectorx's page
- on bob_dylan's blog post
- on headshot's blog post
- on Is 'Switch' A Distinct Personality Type? in bdsm
Short update for now. Things...have changed for my family member in a most unexpected and good way thankfully. More to come if this all stays the same for the next few days or week roughly. Hopefully I'll have fully concrete good news soon.
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sarahpinkshot:
That's awesome! Very glad to read that! 👏👏👏😘😘😘
silentobjectorx:
@venomoth @zweitesich @melyse @shalil @sarahpinkshot thank you all for the kind words and support in this strange and difficult time. I am trying to keep in good spirits as things look a little better in this area of my family member's current health dilemma. It is still pretty much touch and go, but she is getting better so again, thank you all for the sweet messages of absolute kindness. You are all truly amazing people <3 I am happy and proud to know all of you even in a limited capacity online! Have a great rest of the week and an even better weekend <3
So, not many will see this I'm sure. So I'm a little more comfortable talking about this quickly and posting this track too. So, long story short, I've tried ending my life a total of five times (more times unintentionally) in my past. I struggle with multiple mental illnesses and suffice it to say, I was too weak to not fight those urges that the...
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silentobjectorx:
@zweitesich thank you man for the kind and sincere comment. I have kept myself out of those thoughts for a long time now thankfully. That's the reason I posted this song because it encapsulates the feelings I had and the feelings I have now after seeing things differently and meeting new, fun and interesting people along the way that I could never let down by "bowing out" so to speak. So, in the long run I was "going to die young" but now because of so many people that I do care about, that is no longer a viable or wanted option :) Thanks again man, you always have fantastic insights when you comment on my page and I take those opinions to heart and really think on them. I appreciate it more than you can ever know. Also, I promise if I ever feel that way again in my life, I will talk to someone about it for sure. I have lost numerous friends over the years to suicide, overdoses, violence and just straight up tragic illnesses and accidents. It was those very things that put me on that same road as those I have lost but then, the road "changed" and new and interesting "rest stops" full of fantastic friends, lovers and others have "refueled" my metaphorical gas tank on the long ass road of life. I currently couldn't be happier with the people I know and adore even if times are quite trying for my family and myself right now. Thanks again, and sorry for the long response man. You truly rock sir.
zweitesich:
Glad to hear that. Sometimes, think the Americans say, "life is a bitch". But on the other hand you can say "what does not kill me, makes me stroger". Hope you keep walking on the brighter side of the life knowing the dangers of the dark side (gosh, it souds like Star Wars). So thumbs up and wish that you experience much love and kindness from many people. And if the darkness comes, drop me a line :) we always can talk.
From the penultimate band Swans, off the album Soundtracks For The Blind, the track "I Was A Prisoner In Your Skull" so enjoy or whatever it is you feel when you hear this track. I had a "bad" interaction with someone recently and it made me think of this track. This person is super fucking annoying and though it doesn't quite fit, here it is...
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Dual performance of "Free" and "Hey Mami" from Sylvan Esso off the albums Free Love and SE respectively. I am sorry I cannot be here. This encapsulates my now and my past perfectly in terms of how I feel now as opposed to just a few months ago. Things change and I wish they didn't but anyway...enjoy.
It appears I am a fool for being optimistic and thinking things had finally come to a place in time where my family and I could heal and my ill family member, my mother, would eventually be alright. I know that just sounded jaded as fuck but I'm going to be honest, literally everything has fallen apart in a matter of hours since I woke...
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silentobjectorx:
@rare thank you sweetie. Things are still very dire and if these last efforts do not work, my mother will pass away. It pains me to say that but I've been keeping my calm so when it does happen, I am ready for it. I still hold out hope that the few things left to try will work but the doctors all say that the chances of her pulling through are the equivalent of a "miracle" (their words, not mine.). So there is a little something to hold onto still. I'll have to wait and see. Thank you again sweetie. You are an amazing friend <3
rare:
@silentobjectorx hugs ❤️
From the group Incubus off the Make Yourself album, the track "Stellar." Now, I know this is a very overplayed song from that time period but, this is a great track still and this was an amazing album overall. In my humble opinion, this was the last amazing album from Incubus. Everything after Make Yourself just doesn't sound like them. I don't mean each of...
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felicity:
It's good to see you here, my dear! Incubus is such a great band and thanks for this good song :)
locknut158:
Never listened to too much incubus. My brother LOVED them but it was all about Less Than Jake and Rancid for me
I will be returning shortly back to the site for longer periods of time. The worst parts are over for now. Time to get back into my regular routine pretty soon! So, not that many care but I'm just putting it out there that I'll be able to comment on sets again, post music videos and promote some of my favorite people on the site!...
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chroi:
💛💛💛🌹
narublu:
Great news sweetie, I'm so happy that you will have more time here and for new project... Can't wait to listen something 😍😍😍😍 thank you so much that you always think me and for the mention my friend... But for @chroi I'm so in love for her and that finally she is pink... My pink angel of the site...
I really do hate working on music with others but it's more than that. It's the entire industry that I despise. So In the spirit of that I give you one of the greatest bands of all time. The Jesus And Mary Chain. Off their album Munki, the track "I Hate Rock N Roll" and it's quite fitting. So if you're an old indie/pre-alt rock...
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Sorry. Anyway, Radiohead's track "Fake Plastic Trees" of the seminal classic The Bends. I'd say enjoy but that wouldn't really be the point now would it? Bye for now. I'm only here in a ghost like capacity for a few seconds a day.
"And once again now
You'll pretend to know that
You'll pretend to know that
That there's an end
That there's an end to this begin
That there's an end to this begin
It will help you sleep at night
It will make it seem that right is always right
Alright?"
Alright?"
- Billy Corgan, "We Only Come Out At Night" Smashing Pumpkins